“I am whom i am. Love it or Hate it ”
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009
December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
April 2010
May 2010
June 2010
July 2010
August 2010
September 2010
October 2010
December 2010
January 2011
February 2011
April 2011
May 2011
July 2011
August 2011
September 2011
November 2011
December 2011
February 2012
March 2012
April 2012
May 2012
June 2012
August 2012
September 2012
October 2012
November 2012
December 2012
January 2013
April 2013
May 2013
July 2013
October 2013
about me.
Friday, January 22 || 10:47:00 AM
Somehow or rather, im feeling this relationship seems to change or should i say different from how it used it to be. (after the major arguement that we had)
I feel im caring lesser, abit more in the cant be bothered, gloomy and grumpy attitude. In fact, frequently having the urge to cry without knowing why.
I tried again to take some initiatives but it seems to me that i know how he would react. Examples will be like asking him out will know he will be occupied, telling him i have a pre-birthday celebration by my friends and asking if he can make it...
So many things seems to be spinning in your mind yet, you don't communicate about it.
But one serious thing i do see about you is that your love, care and concern for your mommy which i can feel that you are worried and you are trying to be the man of the family during the absence of daddy.
I was telling him that i feel i might be suffering depression as well as these symptoms seems to be always following me. In fact, i told a few close friends of mine. Yet, none believed.
in their mind running "how could a happy go lucky girl have depression?" this beats me too. But all i can say that it could be i'm well hidden under my mask for survival.
YET, im vulnerable.
Maybe it's time for me to be less strong headed and relax a little more.
