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why!
Wednesday, January 27 || 11:47:00 PM
U know something? i tried deleting photos and untagging them like how you did it to me. It doesn't work, the fact that the more i deleted, the more upset i became. How could you do this to me? You were angry to remove your status and change it to single, you were angry and deleted all the photos we had taken before and removing every single tags i had taken the effort to tag you in them.
These are memories... I tried to untagged myself in those photos that had you in it but i stopped after a few. It is not a game if you see it. Arguing hurts me, and i believe, it affects you as well. But with you doing something like that... i really don't know.
I told you face to face, nicely, in a jokingly manner asking you why did you deleted all photos away, i told you i want them back and you said alright. Today was a rest day for you, i thought you would do it. but it never happen.
I told you i wanna to go have a walk to ease my uptight emotion from work, the amount of stress im bearing is seriously freaking my way out. I listened to you not to go, knowing that you might be guilty and worried, but you were totally out of reached.
I really don't know. The feelings for you were clear, the attitude was right. but everything just seems like im too demanding and unreasonable. You know i was seriously upset seeing your status was single, your photo album has none of my photo in them? You did not apologized at all, not at all.
What else am i really hoping for? hoping that we can adapt into one another and change a little, for each other? Looking through, we have been together for almost 6 months in total... Is this what we are worth for one another?
I was so upset yet again to see your profile and i decided to delete you as friend. There is no point for you to even have me as a friend, without my memories in it. Why send me relationship status then?
Work has been depressing enough for me. Nevertheless, i suspect i will have a bad birthday as well. Everything seems falling apart especially when im upset and recently the upsetting feeling is arising frequently, that's why i suspected the depression.
There is no me in your Facebook, no me in your blog, no me in your photographs... so where is me?
Tearing when writing this post, couldn't sleep in the middle of the night knowing that i need to work the next day....
Maybe you are right, i do need someone that sees me in his life, doesn't need to give me top priority but at least, prioritize me.
