“I am whom i am. Love it or Hate it ”
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WHY.
Wednesday, April 21 || 12:39:00 PM
If you guys are curious why am i so attracted to my ex? i wonder why as well.
Im always rather strong-headed person, and usually, i will be the one taking care of my boyfriend.
But he,
He is different.
He is the only one that took care of me when i was running fever and i remember that day, he accompanied to see doctor, bought me herbal tea and a stalk of rose. Then brought me to his house to take care of me. Then, he was sleeping next to me and couldn't sleep well. At times, took wet towel to wipe me, check my temperature and woke me up to eat medicine. Then, i feel protected.
Yes, protected is the right word.
No man up-to-date have given me protection.
Then...
I fall deeper in love with him.
He may be busy, unable to cope with time, weird characters and thinking, childish at times, but still, he always give me the minimum comfort that i needed, which is protection.
It's the feeling that whenever im with him, i will feel safe... that draws me closer to him.
Maybe it's really my fault for not giving him enough support when he's working at such a tough moment.
i think i need to walk around my house's park again tonight. Insomnia is affecting me rather badly last few days and i think tonight, i would be able to sleep.
No more comfort, no more confident, more tears and sadness.
Yes, im crying now again. Alone in office looking at my food yet no appetite.
