staywitme

Finally~

2011-12-12T22:02:00.002+08:00

In December 2009, i have decided to wear braces. Making this decision is tough as i have procrastinated for close to 6 years before initiating.

Now, it's December 2011, i have wore it for 3 years. There wasn't any regret but it has become more like an accessory to me. Despite it have given me numerous ulcers and pain.

Tomorrow will be the day i get to remove it and tata~

The result will be straight teeth. :)

And guess what, my vampire teeth are still around.

HAHAHAHAH~!

Troubled~

2011-11-19T17:44:00.002+08:00

So much on my mind yet i don't know how can i pen it down in words which can ease the pain and problem...

Do you know how troubled i am that i refuse to head home? Every call you made is of motives and you would assumed that i will definitely help. Be it whether it's within my means or not.

Have you thought about how i will feel? how tough it is for me? To be surviving alone outside?

Why don't you whip the useless and force them to face reality? You choose to squeeze your decent one to make her hate going home more...

Is this really what you wanted?

This is upsetting.

Sigh.

Past

2011-09-11T17:53:00.001+08:00

Sometimes certain things are stuck with you for a good long while.

I am not sure about you but im trying my best to forget about it.

Moving on is always a choice of life.

No one can foresee how are things gonna be.

Just be brave and face them.

...

2011-09-04T22:49:00.001+08:00

You trigger it, you burst it.

What a good day~

Settlement

2011-09-03T10:00:00.002+08:00

My claim case is more or less settled, am currently waiting for the settlement to be debited to my account.

So many things that i want to do / clear and so little time for me to decide what to do with them.

One thing for sure is that i am gonna bring my parents to Hong Kong together. :)))

Hope things will be better.

Karine

Finally it is gonna be over~

2011-08-07T17:22:00.001+08:00

Claim case is coming to an end.

Luckie

2011-07-21T23:10:00.002+08:00

It is getting a little upsetting despite i haven been seeing Luckie for almost close to 1 yr.

Never expect things like that will happen to her.

She was once the mate whom will sleep with me and wake me up from my gloomy days.

Now i will miss you, Luckie.

Be it whether you remember me or not.

Karine

2011-07-15T23:20:00.002+08:00

The moment when love becomes a habit, it require a change.

Waste time.

2011-05-16T19:58:00.000+08:00

Seriously when i ask you for help, i really is don't know how to get it going. Else i will do it myself.

I just spend the past 1 hour trying to find out how i can stream the revision video.

I know you have your bad days as well and you need your break.

Nevermind, it is my own exam and i will deal with it myself.

Seriously pissed.

so MANY things so LITTLE time

2011-05-14T09:42:00.002+08:00

Been having a lot of thoughts running wildly in my mind, just so maybe that i am a little stressed out.

Work so far have been relatively stable, Colleagues are very nice and i am learning new things on shipping, geography and PR skill every single day.

School wise, i am having exam next week. Tues will be the start of my leave for 9 full days. 4 papers and im hoping for the very best.

Am going to watch air supply tomorrow with love. It is definitely going to be a good one.

:)

That's all for now.

Take care my friends whom still spend the time to read about me. :))

<3

Am not an ATM!!!

2011-04-17T21:49:00.001+08:00

Looking at the changes of my life where i am spending very limited time at home since i am at my boyfriend house most of the time.

No nagging from parents and i am able to concentrate better for my school work.

But i seriously dislike the fact that whenever they are in need for something, they will give me a call.

I AM NOT AN ATM! PLS TAKE NOTE OF THAT!!!

*pissed.

Thanks

2011-04-17T00:07:00.001+08:00

Have you ever thought that being busy for a couple of weeks and rushing endless report will need a break somehow?

It's just an additional hour of your time.

Thank you for letting me know that I'm not even worth an hour.

That's all.

It is nothing at all.

2011-04-07T23:49:00.002+08:00

Am sleeping on the sofa when you are resting on the bed, by the corner of the room.

It seems to be that it is all a lie.

Just this morning, you told me about how important it is to show concern and take care of me. Even the slightest move of driving and fetching me to work is an act of you showing your love to me.

Then when the night falls And your way of saying it becomes asking whether I know how stressful you are, how terrible his days have been with the driving around to get things done, the insufficient rest, work problem, financial problem, car problem. And you tell me not to add on pressure to you.

It is upsetting.

Forget it.

About my life.

2011-04-02T10:12:00.002+08:00

Been working in PIL for 1 month plus, things were relatively stable over there with colleagues working for years. Not much politics a d maybe I am new, no one really care who am I. :)

Let's hope it will continue that way.

Been really disturbed over friends lately. Really feel why is there a need to outcast? No doubt that I have to admit I haven been attending gatherings with my overloaded work and inpromptu stuff popping up. Friends are friends and am I suppose to be outcast over it? It's not like I did not try to arrange time.

I took leave for my special friend's wedding.
I took initiative to drop random texts to my lovely friend's to try to brighten their morning.
I took effort if possible to msn them whenever I'm free.

Then what have you ladies did?

Did u alll msn me?
Did u all call me out? Even after I tell u that maybe u all can start asking and definitely I will try to make it. Rather than not asking me and flood your tweets and Facebook comments all over.

Tried thrashing session but it doesn't seems to work.

Shouldn't friends be there for you no matter what happen? But have you guys started asking me more about my change of job? How well am I adapting? The answer is NO.

I am really tired and I get quite upset that you all are going out without me.

Maybe it's time that I don't bother at all.

If in the process we no longer contact. I wish you ladies all the best in your future and Jia you!

Am not going to talk abt it anymore.

Signing off,
Karine

Nervous Nervous~~~

2011-02-20T23:06:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is my first day of work, big BOOHOO~ Wondering how come am i so nervous when it aint the first time i am changing job????!!!????

But there again, it is my first time to work for MNC and also, in CBD area! that explains my butterflies in stomach! arghx!!!!!

Please please please, tomorrow dont let me be late yo~

Need to wake up early and please wish me lucK!!!!

Karine

Major

2011-02-16T21:14:00.003+08:00

Oh well, life has been rather hectic these past few weeks especially when i have lotsa of homework, projects and quizzes which is making me suffocate. I just hope that the next 2 years will passed in a spilt second, then, i will be able to focus on other phrase of life - career or marriage.

Anyways, just ended JobsCentral's Lunar New Year celebration and below is one of the task we are required to do, by tearing red papers to form the below chinese characters. Pretty fun and me and Jack are relatively proud of what we did! :)

On the other hand, me and boyfriend has been contemplating getting a mean of transportation and recently, we decided on the model. Opel Combo is the right one for us right now.

And yes, we went around searching for prices and FINALLY, decided to get it TODAY!

Loan is processing, debt is increasing but what we saved on is the transportation time where both of us knows that we will never regret about it.

P.S: Just hope when the car is ready for collection, it will be prettyyyyy! Alot of other work needed to do for the van but we decided to take it slowly.

I AM EXCITED ABOUT IT. :)))

BOOOHOOOO~

2011-02-08T14:52:00.003+08:00

It just seems to me that the longer a couple being together, the higher the chances where they will bickered and conflicts arises.

Been having a number of fights with boyfriend and yet, i don't know how to resolve them. I am a introvert when it comes to argument where i will be dead silent and refuse to say anything when arguing. I will also keep the anger, frustration and sadness within myself and has to resolve to crying before am able to release such emotions.

Feeling rather upset that we are arguing more these days, or maybe, just that our character ain't suitable? or am i too pessimistic where i am not opening up to communicating?

I really don't know.

Anyway, i have recently tendered my resignation with JobsCentral, Yes i know, i am changing job again. But this time round, i do believe, it's for the better.

I am moving on to Pacific International Line being a Executive Assistant under Trade Division. :)

Alot have been on my mind - Work, new job, adapting, school, family, boyfriend....................

:(((((

BOOHOO~

WHICH ONE LAAAA!

2011-01-23T22:52:00.002+08:00

Today was a relatively fruitful day, managed to head down to Sim Lim with boyfriend and brother, walking around each shop to source for the best rates for Playstation 3, Samsung ST600 and Lumix LX 5.

Haven been bringing Boyfriend's brother, Anderson out for quite a while and i hope boyfriend enjoys it as well as i do. :)

Anyway, gonna a pretty good deal for both the cameras!

1. Samsung ST600 - $350
2. Lumix LX 5 - $599

Tell me tell me which should i be getting? ARGHX!

P.S: Tuesday is a EXTREMELY IMPORTANT day to me. :) It is the start of school and it is also the end of something.

pondering~

2011-01-16T21:41:00.003+08:00

After much pondering, it's time again for me to make a decision.

Should i stay with the current fame or move on through hard work to obtain what i wish to achieve in life???

It is really a tough choice but nevertheless, i thank god for providing this opportunity for me.

Thank you bee, for providing support and advice.

Whatever it's, i will always be there with you. :)

New Year New Wishes

2010-12-31T12:10:00.002+08:00

Well, i know i haven have the time to blog since ages. Have been rather busy with my life, even though i ended my exams and having my holidays now.

Anyway, i score pretty alright for my papers, 3As and 2Bs. :)) Now im going to the 3rd semester of my uni life. Sigh*

I decided to come back to my blog again to blog about my New Year New Resolution since i have been doing that for the past few years.

2011
1. Study harder and complete another 2 semesters this year, tentatively another 10 subjects, hopefully i can score pretty decent grades for these.

2. Probably find a job that i enjoy working and of which, i can excel in. Am looking around for some MNCs and hopefully, i can get in. (Even if it's initial lesser pay)

3. Hoping for some traveling around session, am glad just did booking with lovelove and hubby to head to BKK, and im trying my best to go to Taiwan during mid year as well. (Hope all goes well~)

4. Better time management, where i can allocate better timing for my school, work, dating, friends and myself.

5. Work out more often, ever since i stopped my California fitness, i haven pretty much been exercising to keep myself strong, need to exercise and not be so lazy.

6. Speak up more often, many times where i don't usually express my inner thoughts to people and keep it within me. Sometimes i may be crude, but those are comments which i will say and forget type.

7. Save moolah, this always seems to be the hardest as im always broke. HAHAHAHA~ Really need to start some force-saving session going on.

New Year New Wishlist - What i want in YEAR 2011!!!!
a. New digital camera, tentatively what caught my attention is the Samsung ST600 PURPLE CAMERA~~~~!!!!

b. Polariod Camera, Fuji mini 7s.

c. Go to Bangkok or Taiwan or HongKong or Japan

d. Buy a Burberry Blue Label Handbag

e. Get a dressing table in Hubby's house, tsk tsk :)
f. Buy more dresses!

:)

Happy New Year People.

With love,
Karine

So small world with so many things~

2010-12-13T21:09:00.001+08:00

I know im pretty flickered minded...

After staying put for this job for close to 6 months, the thoughts of changing back to where i came from pops by.

I was hoping so much that i will be able to head back to where i have been.

But the main question is that:

DO I REALLY LOVE DOING PURCHASING? ESPECIALLY INTO FOOD AND BEVERAGE SECTOR?????

For this, i need some time to digest.

But looking at the offer im getting right now, pioneer batch providing a $2.2k gross!

How good can it sound?

2 days pending for decision making.

Shall wait till then i guess.

HMMMM~

FUCK THAT.

2010-10-14T14:49:00.000+08:00

Is it really me? The one that seems like cannot be bothered, demanding and bossy one?

I really don’t know.

It has been really long since I last felt like crying in the office.

FUCK THAT.

My life.

2010-10-14T13:33:00.002+08:00

Decided to pop by my blog to write a lil simple entry about myself since Leng has actually took the effort to msn me to not to abandon my blog. HA!

I am moving toward the end of my 2nd semester, means i have amazingly completed 4 projects, 2 assignments, 4 quiz and countless of lectures. Am going to have my exams next month.

Speaking about work, i am more or less stable via my current sales job, climbing up tiers to earn higher commission and definitely, this is one stressful job i have here.

Originally was given a chance to go for Gain city's interview but after weighing the pros and cons, i have decided to stay here for just a little longer, gain more exposure, learn more and spend a little bit more time with boyfriend since i have been busy juggling both school and work.

Tomorrow is going to head to Night Safari for their Halloween's treat, TREAT or TRICK. hahaha! Hope it will be a good night.

P.S: i may be busy but im still alive and kicking yo~

BLANK

2010-10-01T22:42:00.001+08:00

Maybe it's just not right...

It's all for the Power of Love, To you.

2010-09-30T13:02:00.003+08:00

Now Now Now, it seems like a sudden surprise given by Boyfriend.
Just tell me how do i need to react or behave when i meet him,
The him, whom is of authority, power and fear.

I am willing to face him bravely,
For all that is about to happen,
Just because of one thing - Love,
And that i love you deeply,
To have such power to do it.

For which is happening tonight,
For which the effort is placed,
For which the courage is given,
It is all for you, my one and only love.

I love you boyfriend.

Words are left unsaid.

2010-09-20T21:21:00.002+08:00

It is not that i do not want people not to know about us,
nor that i am unwilling to disclose our relationship,
nor i am not feeling happy being with you.

It is just...

You are important to me,
I don't want to cause anything that can hurt you in what you may do,
that means - Your career and future,

I know you will feel upset,
Disappointed that i seems like do not trust in you,
but you are wrong.

You are just tooo important to me that i do not wish.

Please understand.

I am sorry.

End of Term 1.

2010-09-14T13:25:00.003+08:00

2 Subjects down and another 2 more to go....!

School seems to be rather taxing for me these few months, been physically and mentally drained but i am glad i have nice classmates (Pearllyn San) and bee to support me. *Give credits*

Anyway this is my class for my level 3 module, only 12 students. My lecturer is so sweet to buy a chocolate for each of us with printed stickers attention to us. 101% for effort i would say. :)

TP's lecturer is always the best la! be it whether they are back in TP teaching full time, or UniSIM to lecture part-time, they always have the heart of the students. HA!

Thanks for giving 89/100 for my group project YO~

Take a break~

2010-09-14T13:11:00.003+08:00

BATAM-ing over the Long weekend with Bee was fun and relaxing.

It was a good 3D2N trip over to Batam, staying back at I-hotel, visiting Nagoya Hill Shopping centre, having my 3 hrs massage at Isabella, eating all the J-co Yogurt, frequent meals with bee. :)

A good one and a fattening one. HA!

i wonder if we would be as blissful as the couple here. haha~

Next trip, Countdown party at TAIWAN~!!!!! :)

Thank you bee,
I love you.

Karine

Can't Smile without you~

2010-09-07T21:58:00.004+08:00

There is this man whom is very special to me at this point in my life...
Thank you for being in my life,
For wanting to know me better,
For taking the time and effort for me,
For wanting to spend time with me,
For thinking of me whenever you wish for someone to spend time with,
For loving me as to whom i am,
For taking my temper,
For rushing down from home traveling 26 stops to find me,
For facing my parents bravely and with effort,
For having thoughts of our future,
For sharing with me,
For respecting me as your girlfriend,
For being serious about us,
For giving me trust, security and belief,

To make me a better, happier person. :)

There, my boy... Mr Cool. haha. :)

I love you, bee. :)

With love,
Girlfriend

Confirmed~

2010-09-02T20:19:00.002+08:00

Just some updates of my what-so-where-about...

Managed to clear my 12k target probation late last month, and as at 1st Sept, im a confirmed staff from JobsCentral.

Target raise from the typical 5k to maybe 8, 11, 14, 17, 19 or 21k. LOL! i doubt i can do it, but i know if i can, my year-end taiwan trip will be more or less confirmed.

Don't seems to have the mood to blog today. Shall update again then. Ciao~

Maybe

2010-08-26T23:00:00.002+08:00

Damn, first time that i feel like i don't know if i am suppose to pen this down. The feeling is overwhelming, the moment that you keep telling me that i do not have a good temper and asked if I'm possible to be better, it makes me feel upset.

No, it's not you. I feel lousy, feels that I'm not up to your requirement, feels that I'm really bad temper.

I don't know what to express when i was holding the phone with you but i do know that at that moment, i was hurt and tears were like swelling up, that is also why i keep quiet.

Maybe i think too much once again.

Sorry for being short-fuse,
Sorry for being bad temper,
Sorry for being demanding,
Sorry for not being sensitive enough,
Sorry for having short attention span.

I am tired, maybe, i just did not tried my best.

Just some whining,
Karine

The past.

2010-08-22T00:06:00.003+08:00

I don't know if it was right for me to see ur texts, knowing that i may hurt myself when reading it... But all i know was that i wish to know more about you and that's why i decided to continue reading. Perhaps yes, it's true that you both have nothing on-going, but to me, the moment when i happen to read through those messages, i feel like I'm interfering you both from getting into one.

I think i need to stop blogging, sleepy mind is overwhelming sad cells in my mind..... edited and talk tomorrow.

CIAO~ NIGHTS!

Seems like brain is able to function better early in the morning, right after i have gonna my red painted nails that was soooooooo red, just like a cherry. LOL! (OKAY, that was random~~)

Thanks for putting in effort trying to explain to me of how importance im to you, or should i say, for you to me as well. Just like i have told you, i had a bad r/s previously, one that made me felt like an idiot putting in effort for him.

SO...

When i decided to step back into falling in love, in fact, i have dumped in alot of trust, confidence, time, effort into believing that this time round, it is going to work out just right.

I hope you understand why i think alot and also, provide me some time for me to work things out....

<3

Nevermind.

2010-08-15T23:52:00.003+08:00

Do you understand how important for me to hear about him from you when you are actually my closest girlfriend? ONE whom i share everything under the sun and knows that i will not be judged, will be supported and advised? This is what i wish to archive for you and for me, so that we can share one another burden.

You told me, our conversation has become of 80% him.

Don't you remember the times when i spend time and effort to talk to him about you guys, to observe how he behave and to share news of him to him??? Or should i ask, why in the first place do i bother to know him better? To me, i want to know him so that i can advise you better, and also, to know if he is of worthy to you.

So tell me, the fact of me wanting to know more about your comment, is it too selfish? am i asking for too much?

Your initial phrase of asking me alot about him was when you guys just started knowing more of one another, and i helped. Then, it was before my cruise trip. And now, i tried asking more from you, yet you tell me that you barely know him.

Yes, i have to admit. School started, i have lesser time to check out on you, so much so i know you are facing problem at home and feeling stress over school work. I know it too cause i am facing it.

But just to let you know, i do put in effort to make the connection. The Tuesday movie and the partying session where i was running high temperature on the day itself and popped 4 panadols. I make no sound, no whining that im sick, and instead, i tried to make the night a good night for you.

Nevermind, im tired. I don't want to comment.

Just for you...

2010-08-14T19:41:00.003+08:00

Haven been hitting the partying mood for like close to 2 weeks, declining all the fri and sat's invitations for then and because of lovelove, she managed to apply annual leave on Friday and there i go to find her.... :))

Not seen her for like close to 1 week actually, not that long but i do miss her many many. Loves.

Our favorite drink and we love to drink it in shots made by He Ping.... :)

And as usual, our cam-whoring mode is instantly switched on in the dark and loud atmosphere and that's also why i have MANY partying photos. It's definitely one good memories... :)

You know i love you aye? Thanks for always being there for me.

P.S: Thank you Sillyboy for coming down toooooooo, i know you come down is for my sake and you would not wish to party anymore and like what you have said, you have pass the phrase of life to party. :) Much appreciated.

With love,
Karine

Another JC's gathering session

2010-08-14T19:26:00.002+08:00

Everyone do love the long weekend aye? 3 days straight resting session doesn't seems sufficient for me, so much so that i fell ill, need to take extra care of myself nowadays since i am coping with school and work.

As i was saying, On Sunday itself, went for JC's gathering aka Singling's birthday celebration. It was something simple, more like a get-together and drinking session. Seems that i am not that comfortable with the full JC team since half of them are my regular Makan kakis.

Anyway, yeap. The whole k-singing session i only sang 1 song, which is unbelievable aint it? LOL!

Amy and Mike. :)

Arthur Choo

Isabelle and ME. :)

The casual drinking session.......

Life in JC still goes on.......

Nonsensical Thoughts

2010-08-05T22:12:00.003+08:00

Am i right to say that a person like me seems on the nutshell that im a filial child whom loves and communicates well with my parents?

But not much people knows that despite im more than willing to risk my life and die for either of my parents IF they face any difficulties (Keyword *IF* and *Touchwood*), i kept many important updates of my life from them.

They do not know i have left Lifebrandz;
They do not know i drinks almost on a weekly basis and even at times, 3 times a week;
They do not know i lost my wallet;
They do not know that i was ditched by a jerk;
They do not know how stressful im facing new working environment and adapting to school work and stress...

But what they do see is just a perfect little Karine whom has well covered her imperfections and this is what they see me as:

They know im taking my degree very seriously;
They know that im taking good responsibility for my own living and future;
They know that im very independent;
They know that i have found someone else whom pampers me;
They knows that i will work hard for my future...

Ignore me and my rantings, just a random thought.
Perhaps i do really need to cool down and calm down from all the self-expectations that i have benchmark for myself.

But what i do know is what im facing or doing now is definitely be beneficial for my future and no one other than myself is accountable for the outcome of the future i would want it to be.

P.S: Financial freedom~

With love,
Karine

生日快樂 to Mr Jason Yip!!!!! Smooth Sailing and all the best to you. :)

Can't Smile Without You

2010-08-01T13:15:00.002+08:00

Was supposed to have a lil gathering session with Amantha, but in the end, it seems more like a JCJF gathering session. So this time round, me and babe decided to go out together, dating, and only the 2 of us. :)))) Next Sunday shall be our gathering session, planning to go Sentosa for picnic and tanning session. Loves much.

The usual Friday night at the usual spot with my oo clique but this time round, with Fong and Steff (my primary school friends) joining me in the night of chilling and relaxing session. I dint managed to spend alot of time with them because i only managed to re-enter at close to 2am where DblO closes at 3am. LOL! In fact, i think i drank very little that night that gives me an excuse to head to Dolly for 2nd round.

It was also the same night where i heard of something of importance, and that has become a part of my life.... Where my kinder surprise begins~

Barry Manilow - Can't Smile Without You

You know I can't smile without you

I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

you came along just like a song
and brighten my day
who would have believed that you where part of a dream
now it all seems light years away

and now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel sad when your sad
I feel glad when you're glad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile

now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me

and you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
you see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
if you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

Deep down...

2010-07-28T20:32:00.002+08:00

I was a tad disappointed and upset over what is happening at my workplace.
I dislike gossips, attentions, rumors and to be judged.
I disrespect people whom spread nonsense thinking it's an awesome piece of info.

You know nuts about me,
You have no rights to judge me,
You shouldn't spread.

BOOOHOO.

Sillyboy :)

2010-07-28T13:35:00.001+08:00

Thank you. :)

100710 OO-ing with lovelove.

2010-07-26T23:01:00.004+08:00

Whenever this WOMAN comes into my life when it comes to drinking, i know that i will spoil my liver. ALL BECAUSE OF HER. LOL! And by the way, she's my lovelove, Samsam. :)

Me looking into the air for something????

Don't ask me what we were doing....

And thanks for jason being in her life. :)))))

This is me.

2010-07-25T15:11:00.001+08:00

“ I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”

— Marilyn Monroe

I'm just a lil girl, lost in the moment.

2010-07-25T13:48:00.003+08:00

It has been awhile since i last had this silly-ness in me going around,
~the unknowingly smiling at texts,
~the frequent updates,
~the thoughts of him.

What he said was right.

We should never look back as to how bad things were, how heart-wrenching someone else has caused an impact on you, but we should see how good future can be, how glad we knew one another and how interesting things turn up for us.

Thanks for the effort Sillyboy. :)))))

P.S: Wondering why it reminds me of this song
The Show -Lenka

With love,
Karine

We are going to the cruise cruise cruise...

2010-07-22T21:41:00.007+08:00

Its update time~~~~

As some of you may know, i was on my company's retreat to 3D2N Star Cruise - Virgo to Redang. This time round, there is a total of close to 47 pax whom turned up for the trip. :))) It was fun eating, suntanning, swimming, hide-and-seek, eating, arcad-ing and eating. LOL! One day we can eat up to 6 meals on cruise, yes, im not kidding. :))

It was also my first time lugging one DSLR around the wholesome 3 days, freaking heavy but it's something that i will not regret as i managed to capture many beautiful memories for me, myself and colleagues. :)

Here are some photo updates, there are many albums in facebook so feel free to browse them. :)

Team D

If you do find her familiar, yes, she is Peggy babe. :)))

Our first dinner on-board Star Virgo :) *Credit shot taken by Terence*

Yes, total i think 47 of us. :) Heart JobsCentral...

The closer ones, Arthur, Lina and Rusdi...

Me and Jane, the hot babe in JC.

This group is in another office of JC, consisting of Designers, I.T and Marketing. Very nice clique of them and also very funny. :)

Me, Jaeson and Felix (aka ma shi da xian shen)

Me and Colin. :))) As per mentioned by Colin, we seems to be on honeymoon. HA!

Last but not least, some shots on Redang, i know you guys wanna see. :))))

Don't you just want to be there? :D If you are going, remember to bring more sunblock, it's extremely important. :)

P.S: Seeing Sunrise from Cruise is a total different feeling as compared to any moment.

With love,
Karine

Time Flies

2010-07-20T20:59:00.002+08:00

Seriously, time flies. In a blink, im back to schooling next week. First lesson start on the 26th July and it marks my doom day soon. Unfortunately, me and Pearllyn San ended up different class for 2 subjects and i do pray hard that i wont be getting some Fark-up group-mates again like how they destroyed my MKT201's result and overall GBA.

ANYWAYS!!!!

Year 2010

Events	Dates
Events	January to June 2010	July to December 2010
Orientation and Collection of Study Materials (New Students)	9 and 16 January	10 and 17 July
Collection of Study Materials (Continuing Students)	12 to 23 January	12 July to 6 August
Instructional Period (Classes)	25 January to 30 April	26 July to 30 October
Self Revision	2 to 16 May	31 October to 14 November
Examinations	17 to 29 May	15 to 27 November
Semester Break	30 May to 25 July	28 November to 23 January 2011
Release of Course Results	28 June	23 December

As for now, im looking forward to my school holiday soon. :)

Just a side note, i passed all my subjects, as much as it's not flying colors, but at least i did maintained a B or A for all subjects EXCEPT MKT201. BOOHOO! Need to try harder to pull up my grades.

OH ya, i just came back from Coy's Cruise trip, it was my first time to cruise and to redang~
I shall update in my next post ba. :))))))

P.S: Weather aint very good these days people, so please drink more water, sleep early, eat more vegetables & fruits and take care!!! Don't fall sick like ME! :)

With love,
Karine

JC K-singing session~

2010-07-18T20:18:00.002+08:00

On the same day that i lost my wallet, it was team's k-singing in celebration to Rusdi's top sales. LOL! I'm glad that i did not spoilt anyone's mood when i told them about my incident. ANYWAYS, it was a good singing session and i enjoyed it!!!!

So now, let me introduce my team's guys to you all. :))))))))

This is Rusdi Neo, he's LAME! lol. but very nice friend afterall.

This is Arthur Choo, and he's a POTATO person, jia kan tang. LOL! Very talented person indeed.

This is Allan Cai, he's a superb cool dude, very nice person and he's a guy of few words toooo!

And the last one is Terence Tan, he's the team lead whom is in-charge of the guys. :)

And that's our manager, Ms Valerie. :)))))

Thank you guys for making my JC life interesting. :)

There is always raindow after a downpour~

2010-07-13T13:13:00.000+08:00

Heyyy People,

This is the first time i am blogging via office computer during my lunch time. :)

Anyway, if you guys have me on your Facebook, you do know that i have recently lost my wallet with alot of moolahs in them, yes, quite a fair bit to the extent that the total damage is almost sufficient for me to buy my BBL bag.

Thanks to Mr Cai for coming down when i needed someone, knowingly or not, thanks for your great help. Totally appreciated.

As for my girlfriends, thanks for being there for me toooo! love you guys!

P.S: Weather aint very good these days, please do drink alot of water. Don't be like me, keep having shortness of breathe and am on inhaler. SO, don't worry.

Ciao~

With love,
Karine

Yeap, me again

2010-07-10T16:27:00.003+08:00

I am whom i am and whom i would want to live my life. With no influence from external factors, i am truly Karine~

Recently been heading to DblO rather frequently till it becomes more of a weekly gathering session and this practice has been ongoing for the past 2 months?

Love the people there, totally. I appreciate you guy's companion as well. :))

P.S: Something to be seriously upset, i lost my wallet on Thursday.
TOTAL DAMAGE : $500.
Needs to Declare Bankrupt.
Should i make a police report with regards to my driving license????

The sway one,
Karine

To you, the one, my lovelove.

2010-07-05T20:13:00.003+08:00

Aloha people~ Im back to blogging. Today i decided to skip gym to come home earlier so that i can watch a lil tv, blog a lil and sleep earlier. Have been seriously deprived of sleep since i started this new job. But nevertheless, i was feeling the satisfaction and thrill of close won a client.

Oh well~ hope i can clear my probation by this month end. Now, i need to call more. :)) As for which i will try harder tooooo! :))

Finally get to meet her after our last clubbing session on a Wednesday ladies night. Then, it was a crazy night. As for the recent one, it was one tooooo! But i was wasted and drunk for the first time and i finally know what is long island. -______-

SHE is someone i knew since poly days, a rather cool and dao one. One that i rarely spoken to and find her bimbo-tic at many times during the school days. She is also one that clicks with me all of a sudden after so many years of knowing one another. And now, she is one person that is important in my life.

We may not see each other that often, we may not even meet for months because of our work, but we have each other in mind when we thought of companion, concern, love and updates. We may have differences and nags at one another ALOT OF TIMES, but we still tide through. :))

We may scold one another to fark spiderman, chinadog, dumb, but we still cares for one another. HAHAHA!

She is also the one that will be so silly to run up, down, left, right, searching for my cards despite i was irresponsibly drunk. :) *although she nags alot after it* HA~

There she is~ My lovelove, samsam. :)

Thanks for appearing in my life, i appreciate you, i need you, and thanks for being there whenever i needed you.

I love you lovelove!

With love,
Karine

go green~

2010-06-30T22:44:00.002+08:00

After so long, i finally went for trekking, a trip that i would never expect myself to not rest and continue walking for hours.

Yes, you dint read wrongly. Karine went TREKKKING!!!!

Here are some photos for you to seeeeee:

Me, perspiring and walking up-slope.... LOL!

The view was great, but seriously tiring. HAHAHAH!

It's all about going green...

with love,
Karine

HMMM

2010-06-27T23:16:00.000+08:00

It ought to be a good day since i'm back from my Batam trip, but why am i feeling emotional YET AGAIN? This is bad, feels like crying. :(

Being Complicated~

2010-06-20T20:53:00.002+08:00

It just puzzles me when i do not know what you are thinking.

For once, can you please enlighten me as much as we do not know each other long and well.

What are you thinking when you started Mia-ing from me today???

HMMMMMMMMM~

Just a nobody trying to be a somebody,
Karine

It's all about FUN people~

2010-06-19T18:00:00.002+08:00

These few weeks im like meeting Prissy for on Saturday la! Ever since im back in contact with her, we are like going drinking on a weekly basis. LOL! We are all poisoned by drinking and chilling session. But nevertheless, i enjoyed her companion alot. AND ALSO! im meeting her again today. HAHAHAHAH!

Me and Prissy at DblO

Finally Mr Cool spoke to me, he's always acting cool since the first day i went to DblO. HAHAHA! and that's Alex with Vivian. :)

We had a great chat that night, it's a lil sad that you are leaving, but of course, it's for the better. All the best!! :)

The Prissy's clique of friends, all so funny. :))))))

OH YA, and O+ closed down last Monday, we visited it for the last time. Sang my favorite song. :))

Me and Jacky, Dint know he was my Senior in JYSS, too low profile liao him. HAHAH!

Me and Fion babe. :)

I just love hanging out with this fun clique and im glad i introduced the O clique to them, now we are a bigger O clique~ So excited. :)))))))))

More chilling sessions next time luhhhhhh~

With love,
Karine

last day at work in Lifebrandz

2010-06-19T17:26:00.002+08:00

11062010 marks the last day im working with Lifebrandz!

That's provided if some of you might not know, i have actually tendered my resignation since 13052010 and served a month's notice before i left the company. It's a place that taught me alot and gave me a good memories there. But personally i feel, it's time for me to move on. :)))))

And so i did, i moved on to JobsCentral as a Sales Consultant. In fact, i have already started one week of work. Alot to learn and alot to adapt, but definitely, i hope i can excel in my new job as well. All the best to me, myself and Karine. HAHAHAH!

Me and Haze, my partner. I hope she's coping well.

Me and Weili, Mr Toilet stalker. hahah! :)

Me and Hedy, my best colleague. :)

We had our farewell dinner held at Mussels Spout~ It's full of mussels and beers for the night. :)

Me and my dearest Boss, Jonathan!!! :) Thank you for being demanding in my work and definitely, i learned alot from you. Thank you Sir. :)

All the best to you guys!!! Despite im no longer a colleague, im a friend to you all. What you need to do is just to drop me a text, i will get back to you.

Smooth Sailing ayte?

With love,
Karine

the day.

2010-06-10T11:55:00.001+08:00

It has been 1 day after 2 months, i need to try harder.

09042010

2010-06-07T10:36:00.002+08:00

It seems like i can never forget the day where Darling love's birthday because it marks the start of the massive issue. Due to last of sleep, i spoken something out of impulse and yes, i think he took it to heart and therefore things turned sour, and then, his heart left me. The date is 09042010 and it's going to be 2 months of being single, 2 months of emo-ing and 2 months of adapting.

Isn't 2 months sufficient? why do i still feel the heartache which i don't tell people? Everyone thinks that im recover from the breakup, seeing me happy and smiling. But why, why do i feel a pinch of aching whenever im all alone or the thoughts of him in my mind.

No doubt, i still miss him. Despite what he did, what i did and what we did not do. Maybe we should have a official talk to conclude the breakup because everything to me seems so incomplete.

I know im stupid to be missing him and i will be making alot of my friends frustrated because i aint moving on. But believe me, im. Bit by bit, steps by steps, day by day. Just let me immersed into the world of drinking, getting drunk. Maybe it will be better for me now. Insomnia sucks big time, Seriously. Especially nights when you dream of him, it's helpless.

I need to be strong, i know that.
Give me time, give me faith and give me hope.

With love,
Karine

04062010 Dbl O opening.

2010-06-06T13:54:00.005+08:00

04062010 marks the day where DBL O's opening at the new venue, Queen St. No longer near to the place where we can club hopped so easily, no Mohd Sutan, only Bras Basah Circle line MRT station. HA!

This time round, i managed to convince Prissy to accompany me to go since she always have bad impression in clubbings with all the guys bua-ing and whatsoever, that's why i decided to prove her wrong by bringing her to find DBL O clique. :)))

Too bad Darling love and Baobei couldn't make it or they will definitely enjoy the night as much as Prissy and i had.

Counting back, it has been close to 1 month plus i haven have the chance to see the clique because of my exams and projects. So this time round, it was really a good gathering and a good catching up with them. Knew them since last year Halloween and this clique were different, We were all working adults whom just goes to DBL O for catch up and a usual chilling session. Here are some photos taken via Prissy Camera, More to upload since there are close to 20 of us whom are there with like 5-6 cameras going around SNAPPING NON-STOP! HA!

Mr Marvin

Stupid Sean whom is trying to hit on Prissy! HA! LOUSY!

Vincent aka Mr Nice.

My signature pose. JIALAT.

Mr Odil aka Mr Soft-Hearted. HA!

My Superb hot mama, Ms Jeralyn.

Mr Jason.

Ms Christine, superb chio.

Ms Elly. :) Nice seeing you!

Ms Rebecca!

Ms Jaslyn. Nice knowing you.

Prissy love.

My new Eye candy from Dbl O, Lawrence. Okay okay, i know he has been working there since 3 years ago but i have never notice him beforehand alright? and also, ever since i tweeted his photo, friends are telling me they flirted with him before and etc. LOL! It doesn't even matter to me. He told me he seen me before at my usual bar counter and he knows i don't dance because throughout the night i was just chitchatting with friends. Yeap yeap.

He was standing in-front of me inside the bar counter, looking stern and busy. I disturbed him, asking him if he can come out to take photo and he agreed. So he went out of the LONNNNNNGGGG new bar counter to snap photo with me. We spoken a little and i asked if he was single and he said yes. Next moment, my friends all tell me he's married. HA! Big fat liar. We smsed and he told me he's filing divorced next month. Wonder why though, so sad to know married couple wanna divorce. :((((

Whatever it's, he's still cute! HA!

More photos updating via others' camera:

P.S: Just hope Jason and Irene will become better and stronger after the tiff. :) Jiayou. Don't breakup from a relationship just because of such minor issues. Being together is already very tough.

With love,
Karine

HMMMM

2010-06-03T16:31:00.001+08:00

So it was all a mistake from the start...

Hopping around.

2010-06-03T13:52:00.003+08:00

Seriously i think i Party too much these days or simply i just mis-managed my schedule. AM SO TIRED NAO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Impromptu decision to head for club hop with Darling love yesterday and we went to Zirca and Zouk (I shall name it DBL Z) lol!

Zirca was fun, see all my closer ones and informed them of my last day. Stupid Jayden keep disturbing me and also, feifei! Molested me like SO MANY TIMES! -__-''' HA! Lester remember me as well since he was drunk during D&D session! hahaha!

Hopped over to Zouk, was surprised that WAN still remember me. The last time i went with Samsam love to Phuture was last month i think and he could actually remember my name :)))) Saw Sheng's Gf working in Zouk tooooo, dint call her because i don't know her. :)

OH YA! i went to Zouk because toopid Darren invited me to Jonathan's birthday celebration, it was a good Mambo night and am seriously falling in love with mambooooooooo! It's so funny with all the moves, esp when dan and dar were doing the same moves. HA! OH WELL! im so gonna master the song "together forever" hahahahaha~ It's like still stuck in my mind. JIALAT.

Mambo siao, Daniel!!!

Tootpid Darren!!!!

Birthday boy Jonathan!!!

Owen, Ages Darling love's friend!!!

He's so drunk!!! LOL!

My Precious Darling love :)))

I saw Terence and Andrew at mamboooooo tooo, too bad i dint see Alvin Neo and Alan low lo!!! :) Shall have a next time with themmmm.

P.S: DARREN!!! you better teach me together forever hor!!!! :)

Photos will be uploaded once i get it and as for my writing style, if you do realise a little different or im a little too happy. This is because i came back home at 5 plus am this morning and went to work waking up at 7am. HOW HIGH can i get!!!! HAHAHAH!

With love,
Shaggggg Karine

FARK OFF.

2010-06-02T12:41:00.002+08:00

It was yet another night when closer ones see me heartbroken once again.

or should i call it Pathetic?

Was trying to do something out of goodwill, yet you rejected the effort and wrote nasty comments, is that how you are suppose to treat someone whom you once love? or maybe, that love has never existed in your dictionary before.

I took an effort to ask friend to help, yet you can comment "sorry to get you stuck in between ya?" Just tell me WHAT THE FUCK do you think you are doing when you are proclaiming you are an adult? Is that what you should be doing Mr PETTY?

Went kickboxing and kicked real hard that day, slept at 10 plus but i woke up at 3am, feeling helpless and crying non-stop. That's stupid to even shed any tears for you but yet, i cannot control as much as i know it's not worth.

Maybe i should not even see you as friend since you are doing this to me. Maybe i should seriously start to dislike someone when it takes so much more effort to do it, or SIMPLY, i should just ignore you in my life.

That should do the job.

So please! SHUT THE FUCK UP WITH YOUR NASTY COMMENTS! WE DON'T OWE ANYONE ANYTHING AND FUCK OFF.

With love,
Karine

Dont ask.

2010-05-30T15:01:00.005+08:00

Just some thoughts and am not going to mention names in here.

It was more or less my first time not knowing how to console someone, in fact, yes i do feel helpless and scare at that point in time.

It was middle of the night when we were at the back alley of a quiet street with dim lightings. You wanted to smoke and that's why we were there. Started off our chit chatting session and your simple whining. Things grew intense, you spoke of her. You told me the memories that you would wanted to hide at the deepest, the place where you wish no one will discover and will unfold it.

It was your first, and she has been there for almost 8 months with you having a direct connection to her. I know how precious that connection was to you, back then and now. It was her that gives you courage to face pregnancy and surgery, be it how painful it is. The moment when you see her, you know she was the best gift you have ever had or will have. But the blessing lasted only 3 days and she was never in your arms anymore.

Then, the decision day came when everything seems to be falling apart for you. It's a decision that NO ONE will want to make and will be able to make. Yet, you were force to. I know you love her dearly and you cannot bear to let her go. But she has to go.

It has been a major impact on you and i apologize i wasn't there when it first happened. I know the scar will always remind you of her. Even until now, it's near to her 2 years old birthday. The feeling of missing her grew more each day, the memories of her in your arms keep appearing in your dreams, insomnia came and you couldn't focused at work.

At that moment when you were crying and telling me. I could do nothing, but to hug you tightly and cry together with you. That's the most i could do, burst into tears with you. I know you want to try again and i could sense your fear. I could feel your pain, tear and heartache.

But please, you have to continue trying. She may be gone forever, but she lives in your memories. Sorry, i will not ask you to forget her because i know you couldn't. I will ask you to remember her, in your heart, mind and soul. Then, when you have another one, divert all your love for her over.

We were spotted by people and we decided to head by to the cozy pub, sitting by the bar counter. Your friends were consoling you while i remove my shelter and strong self, cried quietly. I was overwhelmed by the heartache, pain and fear and tears just start swelling up. I couldn't stop at all. You were silly to think i was crying because of my breakup, because i misses my ex. But i was crying for you, on behalf of you and to you.

It's still disturbing me now and i don't know what i can do to help you. I'm sorry that i couldn't help you or be there in the past when you needed someone badly. But now, if you need someone, i'm just a bbm away.

Take care and be strong.
We will walk it through together with you.

With love,
Karine

more of my life

2010-05-30T13:43:00.007+08:00

I shall not be lazy for once to upload more photos. HA! Alright! im done with my exams and now, it's holiday. WOOHOOOOOO! :D

Some updates:

Went out with laopos and DH to have a light supper in Cafe Cartel. It was nice chatting with them and we had fun. :) More of such gathering please. :))))))

Went to meet ah ling darling to cut my hair, followed her to her regular salon and i decided to let the stylist decide on the style, now im loving it. Although it's shorter but my curls became more obvious just like those natural wave. :)))))))) Anyway, we went shopping after it and had our private girl talk for like hours. :) Love and treasure the feeling. Thank you my friend.

Meet up with Melodee after very very very long. She invited me to her house first to wait for her to get change. Feels weird and strange to be going to somewhere so familiar yet not especially when i went to peek a boo into his room. Still the same scent, still the same fixtures but i guess everything else changes. O'well. Had a great bowling session with Mel and Dom and i was being scolded badly for not bowling for a year. HA!

At least now im back to bowling, the feeling is great! but not to the 7 games of holding my dear 14 pound ball. LOL! More session required. :)

AND, i seriously love Iphone's apps when it comes to photo-taking man. so envy.

Goldfish me. :)))))

Then due to my baobei's impromptu feeling of wanna go out, we decided within hours to head down to Ice-skating. :) and we found 2 damn siao on guys, Alan and Alvin. So nice to come out with such short notice. I like. :))))) Oh, it was Baobei's first time skating and she did a great job. I had a great fall as well. HA!

Love my baobei.... :))))))

That's all for now, heading to Seoul Garden later. OMG. Why am i so packed? LOLOLOLOL!

BB.

With love, Karine

last paper

2010-05-27T07:19:00.003+08:00

Today marks the day for my last paper, wasn't 100% prepared but at least, i mugged for the slightest hope to score. HA! good luck to myself, will update on how GG the paper is, THEN! i will be freeeeeeeeeeeeee!

A Side note to Pearllyn San,
Please take note that on the 18-20th, you are being booked by me and please, arrange one day, we need to go BEDOK 85 to eatttttttttttttt :D

*Edited*

Last paper was another GG paper, dint study the theory part and yet, 37% were full of theory. HA! but i left the exam hall like 1130 am. Holiday mood. Totally ignore the outcome as long as i passssssss. :)

With love,
Karine

why

2010-05-25T11:22:00.000+08:00

Why why why why why?????????????

Happy birthday alan!

2010-05-24T10:54:00.001+08:00

O'well, If you all realise, i change my blogskin. Despite i was having my examination, i still spare sometime to decorate and renovate my blog! hahahah! no la, just feel that ELMO is cute, but i think it has no relation to me anymore. HAHAHA! it was originally editted for someone, but since it is no longer the meaning for that. I need to change back to a simple blogskin that i always like.

Hope you people like it too alright?

And also!!!!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR ALAN KHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Stay cheery as usual alright!!! :)

Me me me me!

2010-05-23T12:39:00.003+08:00

Friday's Marketing 201 paper was a GG paper! Seriously. The preparation for the exam itself is mind taxing or should i say, haunting. HAHAHA! i bet Pearllyn will know exactly how i felt during that period, the insomnia with dreams like Textbook falling on me. HAHAH! THAT'S CRAZY.

Afterall, i did not much bother or being affected by the paper, i am just so glad that it's over and done with.

Anyway, i seriously think i need to buy some vitamins, looking at the rate i'm falling ill like nobody business. Yes yes, i know i'm not taking good care of my own health, not sleeping enough and yes, yada yada... So many things! but hey, at least i'm enjoying my life right now!!!! That's more important. :D

I still have another paper next Thursday and afterwhich, i will be freed till adapting on the 14th for a turning point!!!!

And updates for my fellow love ones, i am slowly moving on, it's a good news don't you people think? Everyone changes, despite all the promises he used to give, he change. But at least, i know he's enjoying himself with all the entertainment he has gonna for himself. I will lead my life tooooooO!

With loves,
Karine

drink and drink

2010-05-19T10:39:00.002+08:00

Just some photos to show that im still alive and kicking alright People? :D As usual, it seems like photographs were only taken when im partying. HA! OH WELL~

DEEKAY and ME! Don't know what that guy is doing! Fancy wanna whack my head! HMMM! HA!

Our clique with Jason first time joining us! SORRY GUYS! this is the best photos of our clique! HA!

Me with BEN and MATTHEW! Hahaha! Nice and funny friends of Raymond. :)

Finally, another session with my dearest SAMSAM! :) This session was mad funny and mad crazy. 2 girls running around! But it's definitely something that will keep in my memory. Loves. CHIO BU hor my SAMSAM? HAHAH!

After exam, it's gonna be another round of drinking, i bet. Since Pris babe wants to go pubbing and i haven meet her for years. HA! OH YA, and the drinking session with bi zhu, dong hao and sze yuen, and with Richmond, and New dblo!!!! OMG!

Am i permanently being poisoned by liquor? HAHAHAHAH! SHIT. Oh well, happy jiu hao.

Ciao~

With loves,

Karine

For us girls.

2010-05-18T10:30:00.000+08:00

Here's to all the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning & be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life , only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend" one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves & misses you.

We deserve something, and this is our tribute. Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change . We listened to our friends tell us that we we 're stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, & even snuck around to see him for while .

We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking we would be just friends, & ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time.

And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us. Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days.

Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us . We learned to settle for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.

Here's for the ones who did their hair and makeup & put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again.

This is for those great girls, who loved him more than words can say, & took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn ' t bear to look back on their lives one day & wonder "what if". This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, & cried during the entire conversation.

The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it. This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with .

This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, & get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that " things were going too fast, he needs time ". Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt.

The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an " I told you so ". The ones that could just tell that they had made a mistake by ever allowing him into their hearts & their dreams again.

We knew that we deserved better the entire time that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that. Here's for the ones that finally realized that he never gave a crap about them.

Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, & the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here are for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better .

This is for those confusing days, when you miss him & want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong and remember that relationships are like broken glass; sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together & get hurt.

Remember the times you cried & how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When 'your song' comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made & tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door.

Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation & the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the hell he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night & how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to.

One day you'll find a guy, who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry . You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's going to hurt like hell, & it's going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal. This is for those girls who fell back in love with their ex, only to get hurt all over again.

wonder wonder

2010-05-17T09:50:00.002+08:00

I seriously wonder what is in the mind of an adult man! hahahaha!

Out movie, dinner and chilling at TCC with two brothers, haven seen them at least for like 5 years? and because of Facebook, we reconnected and decided to meetup. :)

I dint know that one of them were already a signed-on Airforce. So proud of him lor! hahaha.

I seriously believe talking craps is the hidden talent within the 3 of us and they taught me alot on man's thinking. They were wild, playful and they spoken to me like a brother to brother talk without embarrassment. HAHAHA!

Gained knowledge like what's FISHTANK! LOL! and know more about their individual's 风流 lifestyle. They seriously gonna get their Karma soon man! HAHAHAHAH!

But it was a nice chill out and im shagged now, chilling out is fun but until 2am when you are suppose to wake at up 7am! lol.

More chill out More chill out~

3 cheers to your Honda Civic la! MORE RIDES AND MORE MEET-UP PLEASE YOU TWO! :)

with loves,
Karine

P.S: Robin Hood was nice, just like a war show.

just another girl's dream.

2010-05-15T12:12:00.002+08:00

Sometimes the little girl in me just keeps me wondering whether can i have a romance just like the ladies in the Taiwanese Mama-Drama? Something that will make one woman die for, dream of and live for.

Mama always tell me to find a guy whom love me more than i love him. This way, i would always be pampered. He doesn't have to be very rich or very handsome, all i need was his love, care, concern and priority.

HAHAHAHAHA! Karine's just like the typical girl. :D

turning point

2010-05-14T10:22:00.004+08:00

13-05-10 marks an important day in my life and it is a turning point for me as well. It

takes me alot of courage, trust, determination, advices and beliefs to make such a decision.

Whatever it's, i do hope i will not regret, will not turn back, will be one happy girl.

Loved ones, thanks for your advices and companion when i needed the most. HAHAH! i do know

im a problematic kid down here with all the irregular blast of grump-ness. but you people know

i love you all deep deep alright?

With loves,

Karine

TEEHEE

2010-05-03T22:41:00.002+08:00

LOL! People, i just realize im having alot of closet readers all around and even people whom i do not know. :)

BUT ANYWAY, I GOT AN OPPORTUNITY WHICH IM TRYING TO GRAB HOLD OF. Future = unknown.

WE SHALL SEE. :)

:)

2010-04-29T22:35:00.002+08:00

OKAY PEOPLE! IM JUST BLOGGING TO LET YOU GUYS KNOW IM ALIVE AND KICKING ALRIGHT? :)

<3
Karine

A new beginning.

2010-04-22T11:15:00.002+08:00

Okay, this shall be the last post that i will be writing for him now as my ex boyfriend.

After yesterday incident, it strengthen the fact that we are indeed a misfit. The thoughts and the belief that you had are often tough for me to understand or to share the same belief.

And at the same time, i actually needed a boyfriend whom will support me irregardless whatever happens. But at that moment when i told you something, you shooted me down even before considering my feelings. You may feel you told me the actual reason and that could be enough. But there again, it's the process that hurts, and it's never pretty much about the ending.

Alas, i would conclude i give up. Finally letting go this relationship, know that he no longer has that kinda feelings for me. Those that he would be crazy over me, and will do all sort of things to make me happy. I think it is the heartbeat faster kinda feeling. Maybe it was just an affection from his side, and it became a habit.

But whatever it is. He did appeared in my life and i have to appreciate him, be it whether he hurt me, ditch me or what-so-ever.

Thank you Mister Soh.

Thanks for taking care of me for almost the past 1 year, cheering me up and doing all sorta stunt on me. I will never forget those moments at the bridge, the hair blower issue, the air gun things, the quarrels and etc. Those are part and parcels of memories where i will be throwing them into the hidden memories. And will think of it once in awhile. :)

We may be fuck up and complicated, messed up from the start. but the fact is, we started and we ended.

Take care alright? and remember your meals and stop working like a crazy dude! i hope you get to go oversea for your further studies!!!! And enjoy your companion with your friends.

Good bye.

Anyway, we may need to meet up one day to pass you back your shirt. Wait till the day we will start talking again ba.

P.S: All my friends whom are concern, please stop spouting his negative things to me alright? it's over and i don't want to talk about it. :D but thanks for you guy's concenr.
___________________________________________________

As for me, i woke up. Wake up from the dream of pinching a little more hope. A little more hope of getting back together. He may be fuck up but he is still one that i love.

I decided to also throw the love i had for him in my hidden memories corner and buck up my life again.

Am going to study, work and play hard. And maybe, once i take out my braces, i will try SQ. LOL! but anyway, i feel more relieved after the cried i had yesterday.

Even when reading the harsh comments made by him and his friends, it seems immune to me. Maybe im used to it or i really let it go.

Not going to think about it though. :)

做人开心就好。

P.S: A new beginning.

WHY.

2010-04-21T12:39:00.002+08:00

If you guys are curious why am i so attracted to my ex? i wonder why as well.

Im always rather strong-headed person, and usually, i will be the one taking care of my boyfriend.

But he,

He is different.

He is the only one that took care of me when i was running fever and i remember that day, he accompanied to see doctor, bought me herbal tea and a stalk of rose. Then brought me to his house to take care of me. Then, he was sleeping next to me and couldn't sleep well. At times, took wet towel to wipe me, check my temperature and woke me up to eat medicine. Then, i feel protected.

Yes, protected is the right word.

No man up-to-date have given me protection.

Then...

I fall deeper in love with him.

He may be busy, unable to cope with time, weird characters and thinking, childish at times, but still, he always give me the minimum comfort that i needed, which is protection.

It's the feeling that whenever im with him, i will feel safe... that draws me closer to him.

Maybe it's really my fault for not giving him enough support when he's working at such a tough moment.

i think i need to walk around my house's park again tonight. Insomnia is affecting me rather badly last few days and i think tonight, i would be able to sleep.

No more comfort, no more confident, more tears and sadness.

Yes, im crying now again. Alone in office looking at my food yet no appetite.

fuck up.

2010-04-18T13:53:00.002+08:00

Once again, im heartbroken.

Things seems so complicated between us and i know. you guys are going to tell me i deserved it as i should have stay out of contact with him.

The feeling is still terrible, he seems to remain cool and he doesn't seems to care about me.

My emotions were like roller-coaster and everything when i couldn't control it, i hope to delete his msn, bbm, hp no and facebook.

What's more is that i remember his no, his email add. Even my lappy password is his IC no. i know it's like so what the fuck.

Now he seems drawing away from me and yet again, i feel heart broken.

He may not be the best man whom have treated me the best. Giving me his love, care and concern. Every Sunday, i dream that he would ask me out. Everyday i wish that he would bbm me. that's how i gonna past last week.

Not drinking and partying and finding new guys at all. i cannot moved on or should i say i don't want to move on.

Everytime he say don't see a future in us, in his career and he don't believe in marriage hurts me.

Am i really sucha lousy girlfriend that i cannot even make the guy i love into believing me, believing my love and believing into settling down with me.

Once again, i teared.

I admit, i'm weak.

need to breathe

2010-04-17T19:27:00.002+08:00

After 1 week of struggling, i thought things are progressing, in the end, it is back to square one!

now, im still undergoing the heartbreaking moment once all over again.

How could one break up and start FLIRTING with girls, saying that he's single and he seems happy about it? AM I SUCHA BAD GIRLFRIEND?

Once again i cant focus at work and i start crying over and over again.

FUCK YOU!
you care, you talk, but your actions ARE HURTING ME!

WHATEVER!

whatever

2010-04-17T00:30:00.003+08:00

I have just heard a drastic news that almost make me wanna breakdown again.

I think most of you do not know. Due to some seriously-fucking-have-problem decision made by my family, my dad decided to sell his flat in order to generate more income when he gonna his CPF.

And now, im staying in a rental flat and the fucking landlord is asking us to shift, by 1st Jun. Or, let him stay with us where he would reduce the rent a little.

My selfish brother whom i have asked him out to talk does not take any fucking interest at the situation. FUCKING HIM still happily sit in his room playing the FUCKING computer. YOU ARE ALREADY FREAKING 28 YEARS OLD AND MARRIED. CAN YOU FOR ONCE USE YOUR BRAIN INSTEAD OF USING YOUR DICK TO THINK?

Say want to shift house, even before deciding if we are financially stable to make such shifting. Reason given say too many people! YOU WERE THE FUCKING ONE THAT LET YOUR WIFE'S SISTER AND SISTER BOYFRIEND TO SLEEP AT OUR HOUSE, SO SHUT THE FUCK UP!

Told you to look into repossessed flats, you tell me to find and you submit the document. YOU ARE FUCKING 28 YEARS OLD, CAN YOU FOR ONCE MAKE YOUR OWN DECISION. IT'S GOING TO BE YOUR FLAT! NOT MINE, NEVER WILL BE MINE! YOU GET IT? SO WHY AM I PUTTING IN SUCH EFFORT FOR YOU?

Im having project submission next week and this is the shit i get from you right now this very moment! IF YOU TELL ME YOU CAN NOT SUPPORT THE WHOLE FAMILY, DON'T LET ME SEE YOUR WIFE CARRYING LV OR EVEN, PLAN TRIPS TO TAIWAN!

Wanted to talk to him, yet, he felt asleep. It seems like anything related to my well being is no longer a important factor to you. the only reason i could give is that you are tired and you are sleepy. WHATEVER!

This is what i call embarrassment in my family! fuck! damn stressed and im facing this shit.

GOOD JOB.

another about me

2010-04-14T14:26:00.002+08:00

Nowadays i found even more annoymous readers checking out on my life. Just some updates since still quite a few more of you guys are asking me how am i.

These few days were the getting used period where i will, unknowningly remember him. Do not even need to go to places where we went before but just simple meals. E.g: If im eating, i will be worrying if he's eating as well. When i was wandering around park, i will be thinking if he has ended work and head home to rest.

Many of you have asked me to stop contacting him, ignoring him and in fact, tell me that he's the one that is causing such misery on me, why do i even need to care about him? Some even said that i should be glad that he's out of my life.

What i have to say:
I treat every r/s of mine seriously and i will never badmouth any single one of them. Every r/s i have fallen in love, i make sure i put in 101% effort and feeling to him. If he's not returning it, so be it. But please, don't use outsider's point of view to judge us or solely, to judge him. Everyone of us makes a decision based on how we personally feel, but not on others.

Yes, even after broke up, i still love him. It's those kinda feeling whenever i thought about him, i teared. It may only be months, but the feeling on my end is like a sigma, infinite.

Maybe he will find someone better than me. :) i hope he will, all i wish is he would be happy.

Anyway, i couldnt concentrate at all these days. And the reason for my constant breaking down is my :

1. r/s,
2. next week projects submission yet i couldnt concentrate
3. colleague leaving and have yet found any replacement,
4. next week exam.

Wish me luck.

With love,
Karine

wanna know more?

2010-04-12T09:40:00.008+08:00

Okay, i do realise i have some readers in my blog, they are those secretly reading updates about my life and yet, do not tell me that they actually do it. anyways, just some updates for those whom are concern about my breakup. (I do not know why but i do have a feeling he might also be reading on my blog, hoping i wasn't greatly affected. i do hope he reads as well.)

I stopped crying on Saturday itself, during then, it was a massive breakdown. Crying in the room without lights and no sniffing because i share a room with my parents. Used up a few packet of tissues with my eye swollen till i looked into the mirror, i looked like a puffyfish.

Weekend was terrible for me, couldn't be able to do work at all as i couldn't focus. Luckily i do have some appointment with certain friends to keep myself occupied and entertained.

Went for photoshooting last Sat and afterwhich, Bestie and i headed down to Bedok to sing k. After 1 full year where we both headed to sing K, all alone by ourself. :) Had a great time, and thank you for your companion. You happen to be with me when i needed companion. I love you la Sister as much as i know you don't read blogs. -_-'''

Afterwhich, we had dinner at Crystal Jade as a Belated birthday dinner from her!!!!

As for sunday, i was forced to leave house and head out to meet DIDI for movie and dinner. He is not very comfortable with me alone at home, in fact, alot of my friends aint very comfortable about it as well. hahaha.

As for last night, "we" had a little talk. He accidentally bbmed the wrong person and we chat a little, just like stranger or should i say, with a little weird feelings mixing around the conversation..

He told me this, which i believe many of you actually like it in my FB status

"Nothing is tough for Karine Kwan"

and he also told me this too as well:

"You are right. The others are right too. Don't be too sad because of a jerk like me. Totally not worth it. :D"

OH WELL, whatever happened is fixed. Since decision is made, we should suck it up (Just like how you would usually say it.) No more anger revolving around me.

Just a little upset, a little empty and i need to adapt to the whole new situation and environment again. This time, without a boyfriend which is you. I cannot deny that i misses you be it how you have treated me and be it how many people told me that it's actually better to live off without you. But only i will know what and how you treats me.

(just a side note to you if you read it)You may not be the best, but at least, i know you are trying the best you could. So if you are upset as well, do take care and cheer up. We will all recover and be better. :)

As for what you posted in your FB, i hope it's for me.

以後的路我不能陪你了, 你一定要比我幸福.

I wish you happiness as well. We will both be happy in future, that's what i hope.

Good health and smooth sailing for you and your family. :)

P.S: I think i have rich tear duct, how could i tear in office while reading it? LOL! oh well. off to work and i feel better after writing so much.

Peeps! please arrange a day to meet me ya? alot of friends catching up session nowadays.

2010-04-11T00:08:00.003+08:00

okay, as most of you closer ones may know. i have been undergoing emotion roller-coaster badly these few days. Woke up and cried and couldn't sleep in the middle of the night.

Yes, just to clear everyone's question and concern.

I have broken up with my boyfriend.

I'm undergoing the period of recovering. it doesn't seems good as its affecting my sleep and thinking but i will try.

So people, do ask me out ya? i need some schedules.

Something that guan told me to read.

Excerpt from It's Called a Breakup Because It's Broken
by Greg Behrendt and Amira Ruotola-Behrendt
"There's no doubt about it-breakups suck. But in the first few hours or days or weeks that follow, there's one important truth you need to recognize: Some things can't and shouldn't be fixed, especially that loser who dumped you or forced you to dump him. It's over for a reason, and deep down inside you probably know what that reason is.

At the end of the day, it's about weather YOU like yourself enough to face the reality that your romance wasn't working.. to recognize that it wasn't giving you what you needed and deserved

Life's biggest rewards come from the biggest challenges.

Anyone who assesses you or your relationship as "disposable" is not worthy of your time or tears.

Just remember, though, that any reasons you come up with are ultimately irrelevant. The harsh reality is that even if you have EVERYTHING else in common, the one thing you don't have in common is the belief that this relationship can work. & that alone trumps your shared love of puppies, The Dave Matthews Band, and Mexican food.

A lot of the pain you are experiencing right now is actually fear. Fear of things being different then how you liked them, fear of never finding love again, fear of being alone, fear of having to fill your time differently. We're afraid of the unknown.

The person you loved took a good long look at the awesomeness that is you, evaluated your relationship together, and said, "No, thanks. I'll try my luck elsewhere." Or you said it to him. Either way, that alone should make you realize that it wasn't a match made in heaven

"I don't know" means "NO!"
"I don't know" means "I'm too cowardly to tell you the truth because I can't deal with confrontation."
"I don't know" means please do the dirty work for me because I don't want to hurt your feelings even more then I already have.

Awesome thought: The annoying thing that your ex did will never bother you again. I'm sure that your plan to get him back worked out in your head. I'm even sure that it worked out in some movie you saw. But your ex does not have the time to follow a movie script and you shouldn't either. Move on.

Every moment of pain, weakness, and discomfort puts you in a position to choose how you will react and how you will alleviate your condition. Calling him doesn't make it better.. it only pulls you back into the cycle of heartbreak.

He is the past. You are the future.

Messing up his life isn't the best revenge. It's getting on with yours and living it to the fullest.

One of the sulkiest and most frustrating facts of life is that sometimes relationships just end, often without reason. I truly believe that some times both men and women simply run out of love, even when there was a lot of it in the beginning.

Before you look for validation in others, try and find it in yourself.

As much as it sucks, you need to FORCE yourself to remember your very worst times together, ..his most irritating habits and the hard truth that not only can he live without you.. but he'd rather.

You're giving an okay guy who cheats on his girlfriend a hell of a lot more credit then he deserves. He's a coward and a betrayer of not one but TWO women. He clearly feels ambivalent about you at best.. otherwise, he would have left this other woman a long time ago.

So many of us find ourselves saying "BUT HE WAS SO GREAT!" Yes, and the people who got on the Titanic thought they were going on vacation. Things changed and it's important to remember that they did.

Awesome thought: The right guy is out there right now, wondering when he's going meet someone just like you.

His regrets or lack thereof are exactly that- his . and not even the best little black cocktail dress can change that.

Every time you see him, you only make yourself vulnerable to further heartache. Do you really need further proof that he's getting on with his life without you?

The one who dumped you has had a huge head start on the healing. However long he entertained ending the relationship is also how long he's been emotionally extracting himself from you.

He was either partially or totally over it before you even knew it was going down

You weren't in the same relationship. That should answer ALL your questions.

You can love your friends.. ..you can love your family ... you can even love every stray dog or stray drummer that crosses your path. HOWEVER, you have to learn how to love yourself, like yourself, and put yourself first before you will ever find the healthy, loving, and lasting relationship that you've been looking for."

Meiling 22nd Birthday

2010-04-09T11:53:00.002+08:00

Went to Butter on Wednesday to Celebrate Meiling Darling's 22nd Birthday, it was a Blast although we only stayed till 2plus am. Many of them had a off-day the next day but im the unfortunate ones. HA! In Fact, it was my first time to Butter, pretty small and squeezy but overall was great due to the great companions i had.

Happy Birthday Darling! i Love you la!

Because it was a Ladies' Night, it means Free Flow of Housepour from 10pm till 1am. LOL! this was like rounds of free booze for us in preparation of making Darling drunk.... LOL!

Plenty of photos taken on that day since we had 3 camera and i think the total number of photographs taken were more than 700? (Luckily, that figure is only before filtering. LOL!) Totally love this pict, it makes me feel like im falling in love with HER! hahahaha. pretty cute and interesting pose we had though. :)

Gonna to know one new friend - Siang Yee whom is Meiling's good friend. Another crazy fellow similiar characters as me! So we ended up reallly really making funn out of one another and going crazy.

Then it's like the usual photo-session between me and Baobei and as usual, our Lesbo hormones acts up! hahaha. So lovely right! i know that myself... :p And the funny part is that almost all our Lesbo photos look alike, maybe because it's always the same 2 leads actresses. HAHAHA~

Happen to see Raymond in Butter as well! and he's the same height! OPS. But thanks for him around to help us chase away a few unwanted attentions. It has been months since i last saw him i think. HAHA.

Totally love this photo below. Personally i think i look FAIR here which is never true in reality la. It shall be my next DP in FB. :P

Credit for Siang Yee for the photo.

And as usual, clubbing with me around is always very FUN!!!! i bet all of them have to agree with this. I shall not comment more as to what happen and how fun we were. A photo proves everything. Just look at how each of us smile. :) It brightens my day.

Once again, Thanks darling for inviting me for your celebration and Happy 22nd Birthday. Muhahaha. :p

??

2010-04-09T02:25:00.001+08:00

Is this really how you wanted it to end?

Do not even want to try?

human beings~

2010-04-06T17:12:00.002+08:00

It is logical that human beings need communication and respect but why don't i see it in you?

Yes, We talked.

But why it seems nothing important?

I tried to make you feel special and important to me in the midst of rushing through homeworks, projects and work. Tried to make sure that my existance as a girlfriend is still the one that shows you most concern, love and care.

but it doesn't seems likewise.

I asked you for dinner, first you reject, then you decided to go out with friends for dinner. Maybe you aint really that tired,or perhaps, dinner with your girlfriend is consider boring and dull!

So i have decided, no more emo posts and no more putting you infront of me. Eat or not is your own business. I shall not even make the slightest comments on you eating maggie mee or even, asked with regards whether have you taken your meals.

Have it not even ring in your mind that since the usual Sundays are taken up by work, you are supposed to subsititue your any other day for it.

That's it.

I will ignore and behave just like the way you treat me,
i will put myself infront of you,
i will tell myself that i should actually supppose to be love and pamper like how a girlfriend suppose to be.

Someone once told me:

You should never settle anything lesser than what you had, you moved for the better and never look back.

If this is how you would want it, i will play by your game and one day in mind, you will regret.

This is not outta revengue, but i think i had enough.

It may sound crude, but i actually feel more lousy than ever~ like always, im the one being troublesome and picky. it's like whatever~

updates yet again to prove im alive~

2010-04-06T15:39:00.002+08:00

As a matter of fact, people come and leave your life, they moved on to another phrase of life. Yes, and this time round i meant my gay partner, have been colleagues for the almost a year, always meddling our own business and only until recently, we had more topics.

He has yet revealed that he's leaving but i wish him all the best for his future and i do pray hard that the next one that is going to take over him aint going to give me any headaches.

Second term of school seems so fast, have yet to realise it and it's almost time for me to submit my projects. Hope i will have better groupmates and i will stop whining all about them.

Tonsilitis seems to recover and i have been a good girl, drinking lotsa water!!!! :)

nothing much.

2010-03-30T16:22:00.001+08:00

All seems well and settled by now, aside from my tonsils being a sore to me, everything is alright.

Hate my tonsils, hate the pain, hate voice-less, but i love MC. :D

LOL!

After 2 days and my voice is still as bad, hope by tomorrow, it will recover. Now i will be a good girl and head to bed once again, for a good rest.

dblo

2010-03-28T12:21:00.002+08:00

Moving out of Dblo was something so anticipating, as o clique were so busy talking about it.

Dint wanted to head down until Terence told me about the extra slot for guestlist and also, promise Sam Sam to head down.

It was pretty good night as much as for the crowd, but i headed home early. Have yet fully recovered so i will not spoil my health this way.

But it was a good de-stressing session.

it's time.

2010-03-28T12:08:00.001+08:00

i think it's time to let you go.

Let you go free, let you go be yourself.

The fun and the joy you had from others always seems so far much better than those i tried and put in effort to cheer you up.

Go and be back how you wanted to be.

whatever

2010-03-23T11:35:00.002+08:00

I don't like the fact that you did not seek my consent and took my money just because you need it.

Has it even ring in your mind that i do need the money myself?

You are selfish.

I want to move out of house.

the right one

2010-03-22T17:22:00.000+08:00

Every girl needs a man who won’t cheat on her.

One who can be trusted in a room full of beautiful girls.

Because he’s smart enough to know that he already has a girl who has everything that he wants, needs and more.

The right guy will never leave you lonely and wondering.

You will always know where you stand with him.

He will be your best friend and lover.

He’ll call you early in the morning just to say good morning or late at night to say good night and maybe even tell you a bedtime story to make you laugh or talk to you until you fall asleep.

This guy will be the kind that’ll do anything for you, even if it’s just to go to the store to buy you your favorite ice cream.

He’ll buy you flowers just because it’s a Wednesday and will notice your hair when you’ve gotten it cut or have gotten all gussied up specifically for him.

You deserve a guy who will cherish you.

He’d never be afraid to smile to his friends when you’re around and tell them, “She’s the one”. He’d appreciate you for the things you do for him, even if they’re little… like the little love notes you leave him.

He’ll be chivalrous.

He’ll wait for you when you’re falling behind, open doors for you and will walk you to the door to make sure you get in safely.

He would defend and fight for you and never bail on you when you needed him most.

The right guy will call you beautiful instead of hot, he’ll kiss your forehead when you’re down and he’ll be the one who will love you for everything you are.

Never settle for anything less.

boring life

2010-03-21T22:32:00.002+08:00

Let me see, there seems to be nothing fabulous that has happened to me over the past 1 week i guess?

This week was more or less a relaxing week for me. I took like 1 week for me to complete my end assessment, on a gradually process, so no stress and i managed to complete in time for it. And then, i was having one week break from school that gives me more time to head to gym.

I WENT TO GYM TWICE THIS WEEKKKKKK!!!! :D

I hope to maintain this practice so not to waste any moolah, or not to gain any more weight man.

Today, i was packing my last term lecture notes so to prepare for a new term, one that is going to end as soon as i realize it, and the next moment, EXAMS.

BOOOOOOOO!!!!

Oh well, mood swing is still occurring pretty much frequently. :(

No photos to blog for my past week of boring life.

and i think that's all. LOL!

im going to bed now.

Nights all.

boring

2010-03-17T00:03:00.002+08:00

Just a repeat thought, why did i not go overseas for my degree? Sigh, taking local degree is so taxing, as much as it's a little more recognized in Singapore, but being overseas allow such great exposure...

I could have borrowed bank loan and work part time there, just like how im right now, surviving well.

Oh well, maybe it's just the travelling and living in a foreign country gave me that second thoughts again. Like what i always said, the grass is always greener on the other side...

OH WELL!

Im 95% done with my final end of course assessment for Stats, and i can conclude the end of TERM 1 - 6 weeks just passed LIKE THAT. OMG.

:D

hmm

2010-03-13T00:51:00.001+08:00

have you guys ever have the feeling wanting to go clubbing? go drink and get drunk? drunk to the extend that you think your worries has all been gone?

i wanna feel that.

sigh

2010-03-13T00:04:00.001+08:00

BEING IN SUCH A SOUR MOOD, EVERY WORDS SEEMS HARSH EVEN BY THINKING.

Im seriously irritated with your topic as "KEA TO KARADE"

SIGHX.

up to you to think

2010-03-12T23:40:00.002+08:00

Uncertainties always arises in my intensity thinking session, practically every day, i think a lot, excessively.

It just keep occurring to me that maybe we are alright, maybe we are in the midst of understanding one another and getting used to one another, accommodating of the various differences.

maybe it's just me again, thinking too much.

i never see you having so much enthusiastic and energy when you are out with me, neither do i see you behaving so cheery when you are around me. Days and days and i will always hear you complaining about your work, about being tired and not sufficient rest taken.

Today, you shown me the cheery side of you, shown me that you are happy, going out on late night activities despite having to work tomorrow, but you guess what... it did not happened when you were with me, it happened when you are out with your friends.

We work very differently.

To me, i would always want to mix my bestfriends with my boyfriend. So, in the midst of being busy, i can accommodate and accompany both side and this is call balance for me. that's is the reason why i would always ask if you would want to follow or accompany me to events or gatherings.

To you, you like these two parties to be separated, not combined. You never have the thoughts to ask me to tag along with you, or simply, you don't bother to ask. (maybe the thoughts run in your mind, but the fact is, you did not voiced it out.)

Maybe your time spend with me is never satisfying or entertaining enough for you as compared to your friends.

Or maybe, the differences is too huge where love, being so magical, can yet to fill the gap up.

Sometimes, i just hope you would be understanding and in fact, show more concerns to me. It occur when i was really very tired at work, i would appreciate if you would even voice out to fetch me home from interchange just to shorten my trip back. but you never did. I told you i had a sore back and gastric, but you never bothered asking why.

Maybe, you just don't need me to be in your life at all.

Stress has been chasing me these few weeks where i''m in fact, trying my best to maintain all the various elements as per how they were.

Having to handle and manage:
1. Work
2. Blogshop
3. Gym-ing session
4. BGR
5. Schooling and projects
6. Friends

Maybe you are also busy with your phrase of life that you just love yourself much more than others, you did not even asked me about my schooling and projects and stuff.

Tell me if you don't need me.

I will learn to walk out of your life quietly.

Today i lied to you telling you im heading to bed, i just don't wish to let you know i will be waiting just for you to get home.

and you, being irresponsible, headed to Kbox knowing tomorrow having to work.

i wouldn't want to have any Karine's day this week since you are tired.

Whatever~!

What rights do i even have, to care?

friendship is fragile

2010-03-11T15:57:00.003+08:00

Human is so complex where a certain thing could be easily settled turn into a mess, as much as we tried to amend, it will never be the same anymore.

This applies to relationship, friendship, work issues and etc.

I face this issue in my friendship.

Is it really true that as teens turn into adults, things start to change? it seems that the older we are, the more sensitive we became. A minor remark turn into a major misunderstanding, but whatever it's. We ought to love ourselves more.

Blogshop blogshop blogshop, it was supposingly to be a kareilade but it became karade. it was from a daily conversation we had via emailing to a blogshop that has 500 over members and 4 collections launched. We asked again for her hand to be in the team, she rejected, her love rejected as well. it does disappoint me a little when the outcome was not what we want, are we not sincere enough?

It feels to me that you rejected the idea, not because you couldn't cope, not because you don't want to do it or not because you are rather busy. it was all because of the initial stage... a simple misunderstanding may turn into a problem.

KEA

2010-03-08T12:05:00.003+08:00

You know how sad it's for best friends to turn to friends and subsequently hi-bye friends?

Like what you said, WE USED TO BE SO CLOSE. WHAT HAS HAPPEN?
It doubts me as well.

Started off being a clique where you were extremely protective of someone, i would name "A". Then we became best friends despite lacking of meetups and stuff. and now, we are rarely talking to one another and in fact, rarely go out as a clique.

I know alot of things has changed. "A" has became attached and had a major change in her lifestyle but aint that her? Aint we suppose to be happy for her being attached to whom she love instead of picking on her being too engrossed with her boyfriend and lack time for us?

Situation has caused us to get drifted apart as well... but aint those years of friendship well built to tide small minor issues like these?

Situation 1:
We have always been dreaming of staying together, opening shops together when we grow up. But things beg to differ after everyone start to gain exposure. We used to wanting to be Air stewardess together but what happens? You and "A" went attached and decided not to try. We wanted to open blogshop and were putting extra initiative and efforts to wanting to make it happen, in the end it dint. Second time, we tried again on a random note as both of us are always working during office hour. We feel that you were not really interested in doing it as we did not see initiative or interest from your side back then. We really wanted you to be part of us when i had that minor talk with you during prawning, in fact, i know you must be thinking we bastard you. Originally wanted to open together and suddenly, we started without you.

When it comes to Business, we have to talk business. It's no longer like a plain friendship that keeps the business going. We have to take extra effort and initiative to walk towards our goal. We spilt our work clearly and we do show our passionate in making it happens.

P.S: You have yet given me any answers about joining us but we will be waiting for you.

Situation 2:
Unfortunately you were admitted to hospital and both me and "A" were unable to go there at our soonest. "A" was at Malaysia while i had to take care of mommy and also, i was dead broke and unable to take cab to travel to visit you but i did sms-ed "B" very often to check about you.

To us, as much as we are not contacting each other, we see the importance of you, being our best friend.

I hope you do understand, to maintain any relationship require initiative. And we do hope to see in you. Tell you frankly, i was disappointed that none of you taken initiative to ask me about my birthday. If you din't realise, if DH did not take the initiative to plan that dinner, i would not even celebrate my birthday with you guys.

Today, i took initiative to ask you regarding your birthday because i do hope we can bring things back to how it was. Not the time when you have doubts in "A" and suspected her lying on my birthday.

It is when we all were "KEA"

busybee~

2010-03-08T11:03:00.002+08:00

Blogging recently seems rather taxing to me than relaxing, maybe because most of my time editing blog and updating one is for my blogshop. It seems that i have always updated my blog, but it's for business purpose, not for personal.

I have a bad news to share, i haven been to California fitness for the past 3 years because of CNY period as well as project submission week. I did not expect Uni to be so tedious yet time consuming, nevertheless i will try my best to head down to Gym for some kickboxing session this week although i have a end of course assessment to be submitted next thursday.

Hmmmm, rather busy life out there i have ya?

Busy and tired to the extent that i'm actually rejecting alot of clubbing or chilling out sessions these past few weeks. HAHAAH! and guess what, i have only just started studying a month back, and im clearing 2 modules already.

SINGAPORE EDUCATION IS CRAZY SHIT!

BOO!

P.S: Tomorrow will be my half year anniversary with love. It seems like time passes so fast, and i'm stuck to you for 6 months le. HAHAHA! :) love love.

thoughts about being in a part time university course

2010-03-04T23:53:00.002+08:00

After approximately 1 month being a part time student, here are some thoughts that have been running in my mind since then.

It aint easy to start off studying all over again, all the late-night studying, sacrificing sleep to get certain things done and proper, handling homework, projects and assignments and everything is so OTOT (own time own target).

Oh ya, not talking about the fast pace lifestyle in UniSIM. LOL!

Today i have been exceptionally unhappy, i know it's not worth to even being affected but there again, i was a weakling to feel of such. For my marketing project, i seems to be down in luck to be allocated 2 group members whom were not enthu in these schooling, projects and whatsoever. Dropped them emails and sms-es with regards to project submission and stuff, yet, i received no replies.

Told them to prepare content and get ready for final meet-up yet no one prepares anything. There i look like a fool providing tons of research notes and information.

Nevermind about that, submitted shabby work to me and expect me to submit it as my grading. I have been very stressed over this project as it feels that i'm working all alone, i can say, almost 80 % of the report was done by me, 10% editing was by Pearllyn whom is so kind to help out and remaining 10% evenly spread between my 2 group members.

I did something very anal today, upon vetting through my report by Pearllyn, i auto submitted online because i know i will be busy later part of the night. and after submitting, i forward a copy of the turning in receipt to my groupmates. And guess what, shortly after it, i received a call from my fellow groupmate making a big fuss over not informing them of the group project and submitting without their approval.

IT'S LIKE HELLO~

i did most of the work and i had emailed like a few times yet no reply, NOW, you are telling me that im not cooperative enough?!!!? how annoying can you get?

You even have the cheek to tell me to re-submit it tomorrow morning because of the grace period provided and say my phrasing and content was wrong? WTF ARE YOU THINKING?

i told you guys clearly:
1. Submit final draft by monday 2359 hr
2. Submit confirmed copy by tuesday 2359 hr

WHAT WERE YOU DOING THEN? i only received your one and only copy on Wednesday and you are here making a big fuss!

FUCK OFF! AND STOP STIRRING MY LIFE. if i have good groupmates, i don't even have to suffer! things will just be like my statistics report!

P.S: all im hoping is just a Passing grade for the report, that's all. AND DON'T LET ME SEE YOU TWO IN THE SAME CLASS AGAIN! I SWEAR TO CONDEMN YOU.

yet another whining session

2010-03-02T15:13:00.002+08:00

You know something, i really wanted to plan a holiday for myself. Despite taking initiatives, asking you a few times on traveling, you shot my idea down.

Maybe i should just plan a holiday ahead without you, with friends if possible, or even, on my own. This could be the fastest way for me to get overseas and relax.

Just checked online again for the air asia promo, talked to you about it yesterday and then, i hear no more news about it. Today, the prices rose sky high. No more the fantastic deal that i have taken a look on and it's no longer worth flying that airline.

I have made known my intention to you that i do, in fact only have a certain period for me to go on a tour. I don't think you took my remark into heart, i don't think you do wanna go traveling, along with me. I don't think you even checked any slots available despite me feeding information to you while you shooting it down.

If you don't intend to go, let me know. I will not voice out to you on packages no more. No more wanting to put hopes into disappointment.

It may be just a simple tour for you, but to me, its a waqy to reward myself after a year of hard-work from studying and working hard.

Sigh.

You always say im forever angry and forever grumpy... OR is it just simply,

you don't understand me
i don't understand you?

some idiot in my life

2010-03-02T09:48:00.002+08:00

Something random just came across my mind today as i was stoning and staring at my computer, thinking what sorta crap should i be writing in my marketing report.

There was once this guy that i had a major crush at during my Secondary school days, we happen to be working together and in fact, we seen each other almost every other day. News start spreading about the little crush i had on him and things improved, we started talking on the phone till late nights, sms each other every single day and even, on days he is free, he would walk me home or we would all head down to Fisherman Village for our usual after work supper session.

We started being closer and there was this period when we were flings, couple but no recognition. And the next moment, he MIA and after a few months, he was attached.

I have yet see him for years and a few months ago, i saw him in club. He took the initiative to approach me and talk to me. He even called me a few nights after and we chatted about old times, about how nice i was to him and he was actually having mutual feelings for me then too.

At that moment when i heard about it, i felt he was a serious bastard. and i started to drift myself away from him. But before all these, i was actually stupid enough to head down to where he was working and peep at him. It was all then.

I happen to talk about it again is because i happen to browse through his facebook. No longer the feeling of puppylove exist, in fact, i find him rather annoying. :D

it's amazing at how things turn around, couples become enemies, friends become not so friend. LOL!

Whatever it's, he's part and parcel of my life and i thank him for making me grow up and grow out of him. LOL!

oh well, back to my mugging session. Took leave just hoping to complete my work in-time.

off i go to crapping again~