“I am whom i am. Love it or Hate it ”

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Have been spending my weekend over at the Aranda Country Club’s chalet as my mom won her company ‘s monthly reward to stay over at the chalet 3D2N for just $50nett. Pretty like this chalet as compared to Downtown east and Costa sand. I mean it is expensive and the rooms are so pathetically small. First time having chalet there so everything seems to amuse me at that moment. The layout of the chalet includes two rooms, two toilets, one hall, one kitchen and two balconies.

The balcony view is fantastic, it is just opposite Wild Wild Wet where you get to see a lot of hot babes and hunks in there, and free music too. It definitely enhances the view over there.












What can you expect more from a three days chalet? It is sure to be messy and dirty. Haha.




Since I am of legal age, it is a must for me to go over to jackpot room to see what actually attracted so many adults to go over. Shared capital together with my brother and indeed, it is complicated, as there are lots of different machines to select for. But one thing for sure, when there is sound it means that you win something. So next time if any of you all go try out the machines, do pray for noise. The noisier it is, the more money you win.


Have to submit all my drawings and sketchbook on Thursday and there are so many of which that are incomplete. SHIT. But here is my portrait that doesn’t really look like me, which do not matter at all.


Here is also some of my friend’s drawings that are so damn nice.












Of yes, went over to Vivocity together with darling and his mommy. And of course, darling drove there. We went to walk in a lot of stores and I brought a Zara blouse only as I already brought mango and Victoria secrets blouses. Actually want to buy this green blouse from pulls and bear but auntie said that I got too many this style of clothing so I didn’t buy it. So we went back home with big and small bags and it was like so heavy.




Went over to school early to print my notes but the lab printer really cannot make it, couldn’t react to the systems and crush my paper. But luckily, get to see my classmate, Qi wei, who manage to lighten the atmosphere. He always does stunt and as usual, he did it again. The lab was empty and no lecturer was in the lab too. So he wet over and switched on the visualizer and draws on a piece of paper stating “ I love LOM” and freezes the picture on the screen. The reason for so is because he wants everyone that goes to lab 2 gets to see his passion for LOM. Sometimes I really wonder what he is thinking…


being explained for my rights and seeking understanding is the basic that i would require anyone to give me but...

haven been attending meetins for the past few times is because of some unforeseen circumstances, like i dint expect myself to fall ill and have stomach infection. and i dint expect myself to miss out the chance to go to bangkok bacause i am ill.

it is not that i am not organized. but the fact is that you guys are not organise and want me to fit into the schedule that favors you all. so is this fair?

it is even unfair to people who needs to earn their living. the club is not the club with the whole commmnunity so screwed up. whose fault to blame?

i would blame no one but i just hope that each and individual of you will feel least guilty when you bad-mouth someone. and if you do, you are still human.

not going to blame anyone for this, what i yearn for now is peaceful and comfortable life. no more excitement for me in the upcoming year. do let me lead the life and stop bugging me.

wishes are like stars which are unreachable...

It has been long since I last blogged. Has been pretty busy with school stuff last week, as I was preparing for our school’s open house and also, tons of project have to be submitted next week yet we are only half way through. My group is not the only one that does last minute work, right inside my LOM centre, the years 3 are rushing for their final year project. It has been pretty difficult for us to find an available computer for research purpose. But no worries, we have our own lappy. Find it a little idiotic though, sitting in a computer lab, having our own laptop instead of the desktops that are right in front of us.




After the hard work, we shall reward us by having the BIG drumstick, this is our essential breakfast. As quoted by Karine, ‘ start off the day with a good breakfast and you will smile till the end of the day.’




Open house was a success, TP seems richer this year as there are a lot more sponsor as compared with last year. I guess the number of helpers increased too since everyone gets LOA for this. Too bad, wasn’t helping out for the school or else I can get the open house tee. SHIT!
But anyway, mind was blank when I was asked what is so good regarding my course. Other then the standard phrase of saying good career opportunity, I think it is very boring. WHO CARES!

There are so many people and if you realize, they seem like a troop more than open house schools guide. They represent the five schools in TP and there are some extra colors that include the helper for CCA HUB and the I-GUIDES. No freshman joined in though, perhaps people who come into TP then will start to be crazy. Haha.





There is also an activity ongoing by the community club. The slogan goes like this ‘fold a crane and you can help the needy people to get a bowl of rice.’ They are trying to set a record to collect up to 45 thousands crane in a duration of 6 days. People like me whom has nothing better to do, helped to fold crane whenever I am free. I guess I folded almost 200-300 cranes in total. This bag is part of it, and darling helped me with some.
ONE BIG BAG OF CRANES.



Congratulation to darling! I am so proud of you that you have passed your driving test with 10 demerit points. I am hereby to announce that I have a new chauffeur. Seriously, I really find that you look too small for the car. Driving the picnic out makes us look so small but who cares, it is seven seated car lei.
We were over to puggol to have our supper with Allen, Benny and Carbison. I think this is the other side of life where we gets to enjoy late night supper and movie and without bothering about how to go back. Shall not envy you as I am also, going to learn driving.




Sometimes I just have the feeling of being treated as the unimportance and I had to say this, the feeling is bad. Time may files but it just cannot stop me from thinking whether are we still in love like before? Perhaps we are too comfortable with each other. Or even, tolerating each other till we can feign ignorance? I am really sick and tired.

The world is spinning but deep in my heart, I wished that it could have stopped, stop right at that moment where we have no troubles and believing in our beliefs. It may just seem to us that we are not suitable but I really cannot forsake this relationship, as it is too precious to me. The amount of tears that I have shed is nothing compares to the happiness we had.

Felt really emotion at this moment, I need love, care and concern. But how am I supposed to search for it late night? Or maybe, I am being over-sensitive. It is especially true when a woman is pissed; all she required was a hug, and a kiss. It is that simple and yet, many men don’t get it.

Just being suspected that I am having asthmatic cough, I hope it is not true but it doesn’t really matters as long as I get the attention that I yearn for. My body has been really weak, immune system not working causing me to fall ill so easily.

I realized the reason for me being so emotion is because I felt so empty. No close friend, no rubbish, no nothing. There are times when I was scrolling through my phone book, no one has come to my mind to talk to and to share about. I am pathetic ain’t I?

Please give me the energy to run along as the world spins.
Please stop me from shedding tears.
Please be generous and shower me with care and concern.
Please lift me up if I had fell.
Please tell me you love me when I needed the most.
Please stand my nonsense when I am being childish.

I am knocking out soon… KO.

I seriously think that I am the unlucky person in this year. All the illness that you can mention happens to me and still ongoing. Having serious cough and flu these few days, unable to eat oily, chilled and also spicy food. Life this ways is pretty sad right? Have to control my diet to recover faster from this illness. But luckily, I got a good boyfriend, who will still allow me to have a bit of fried food. Thank you darling, nursing me for such a long period but back to the root of the problem, you are the one that passes me the sore throat and that gives you the responsibilities to take care of me.





Took back all my result for my mid-semester test and did pretty ok. I was disappointed with one of my subject called purchasing. This paper is divided into two sections and first part is multiple choice consists of five questions – 10 marks and short answer question that concern 40 marks. I have got a final result of 31.5/50, which is a lousy grade of C+ coming to a B. Out of the five multiple choice questions, I only get one question correct. And the worst thing is that even my lecturer laughed at me and said that I am hopeless. Can you believe it? 2/10 mark lei… or else I can get a decent grade of B+ or even A.

I have got an A for my other two subjects which is marketing and modeling. Pretty happy regarding it although I was marked down for modeling as I heard that everyone scored too well and I was marked down 4 marks though. Gonna buck up in my study to at least get a GPA grade of 3. Ganbatte oie~

i think it has been so long since i last felt so helpess... who in earth can help me???

trip to bangkok was cancelled as i am downw ith all the illness i can have, ws given 5 days mc. sore throat, food poisoning,fever,cough,headache, stomach ache... it is like everything... felt so helpless right at this moment...

have to cancel the air ticket and heard from my teacher-in-charge that i am able to get a refund as long as i am able to get a Mc to prove that i am unfit to travel and yes, i got that. went over to fav the MCs and letter over to the jetstar then i made a call to inform them regarding the fax. guess what they tell me,ask me to postpone my flight where i am needed to pay another $170 for the handling and transit cost. i think it is total madness. and also, demand me to make my payment today at 6pm and now is already 4.45pm.

in case not to be cheated by the company, i tried smsing all my friends whom are already at bangkok to try my luck and check whether anyone has auto-romming. and i am glad that my teacher called me back. as i told her what happened, she thought it was mad also but when she was telling me what i can do, my phone batt flat at the critical moment. at that momebt, my heart sank to the bottom.

although i was accompanied. but i felt helpless. no help was given and you were there, keeping quiet.i gues you are thinking of a solution too but why cant i deserve that little care and concern from you. at the minimum, a hug from you. but i get nothing.

went over to talk to another lecturer and wanting to try and get sme help from him but i couldn't. he say he cant helped as me as he did not know the whole story and he scare things might get worse. but i felt that i am pleasing him as though i am down right wrong. the feeling get worse now when i get no return of calls and also, dar's phone also getting batt flat le... what can i do? paid the extra amount?

i paid so much doctor fee and see enough doctors to make me get so freak out for the rest of the year and this is what i get in return. i am so helpless now...


help!!!

Having to hear that I am chosen for the Bangkok trip, I felt so glad. Finally able to spread my wings and leave this place. Get to shop till I drop. Have been really sick and tiring of my current life, to cope with students and work. And for sure, I know my parents love me and want to protect me but the fact is that the way that they are treating me is totally WRONG. I am a stubborn dude and I can stand zero tolerance. This is a very good chance for me to see the world and get recognition but just due to the bombing, they have to object strongly. I don’t think it is fair at all. To mention something like that, why the stupid country has to be bombed in the middle of nowhere, makes me cant go. Have been arguing with my dad these few days and so to mention I just stopped the cold war with my mom. Isn’t this gonna stop soon? Or like NOW?

You can call me mad. Wanting to talk to my lecturer are also you curse and swear at my lecturer are you again? What can be next? I am just not following your way but must you step into my life? I am really sick and tired of your way of living and the way that you think you are the biggest? I am going mad soon. I know you care but you freaky hell care the wrong way. Please do not be stupid to cough out stuff just by trying to scare me. I won’t be hoax by you and you jolly well stop it. You are the one that gives me the hope and now you are the one that step on it, destroy it. Do you know that breaking it means there will always be a crack between you and me no matter how what?

I decided to forgo my chances and I begin with asking around my friends see whom are interested to go but now, I will still hate you. No matter what. You are the one that cause me to be like what I am now. And I will give up the chance not because you are the biggest but because I still care about my family. So you better get it clear!!!!

P.S: to all, please do not end up like me.

after so much of conflict and argument and, i hope it will end here. with me giving up going...

here is some of the stuff that i am proudly to present to everyone as these product are all imported from oversea and i waited so looong.. haha. and now, i finally get to use it. it is some cosmetic from e.l.f and two blouse from victoria 's secrets...







and if you all wanna see the clothing can meet me and see.... =)


on the christmas day itself, i know it is like so long ago but no time to blog so do bear with it. anyway, wanna eat at bakerzin but surprisingly it closed down. the food over there was like so nice. so me and dar was very disappointed so we can only seek alternative. dar then called his sis and she recommand us to eat at a restaurant at esplanade. pretty expensive and high class but it just doesn't appeal to me. in fact, the hawker stall appeal to me. the smell is like so nice and at that moment i just felt like eating it.but in the end, after all the walking, we went to eat new york new york. haha.. big portion and nice place to dine in though...










so long queue lo.. am so bored, tired and hungry...


free candy floss... haha.. yeah...

dar dar waiting patiently for food.. but he seems so hungry too.. haha. =)

dint really like this mushroom soup though. taste abit weird and not value for money.


i love my ribeye steak man. damn nice... ****


strawberry margarita, not bad but not strong enough.










then last week, we went over to eat pizza hut since there is student promotion ongoing... like the food over there and it is cheap..









dar dar too hungry le. haha...and here food comes... yummy...look at the bread... haha..

although the chicken soup over here is free of charge but i love it to the core man. it is so nice and thick. too bad, no more free soup already. new system and only allow one bowl per person.









since say so much. let me intro you two new character in my life. doby and lucky. haha. both my dar's gf and they sleep with him more then i do.. lolx..


the smaller size is the elder gf of dar dar. she very cute and the bigger size is the younger gf of his. the younger one eat almost everything you can find. haha