Is there any problem with my English? Why is she already reading between lines or miscomprehen it?

Forget it, I seriously need to take a break.

Still working now at office. The stupid excel bullied me, spend almost an hour doing a database and all of a sudden, the file just disappear.

Sigh.

P.S: I decided to only shift my seat tomorrow or on Friday. Today is too busy day for me to pack my stuff. Maybe tomorrow I will receive a call? A call of hope?

LOLx.

Just some side track, I think I will pretty much slim down for the past few days since I basically eat nothing? The whole of today I ate half a packet of rice and that is my only meal.

Throat is hurting me so badly that I don’t wish to put anything in my mouth, not even swollowing water man. I am dead serious.

Oh ya, Mr. Keagan, make sure your first trip can fly to somewhere where I can ask you to help me buy branded bag! And I meant it… Muhahaha. Since man don’t use all this, so your bag allowance will be divided to all your females friend. You are such a nice guy… =)  

Have been having high fever for the past 2 days and unable to go to work. Up till now still have sore throat and cough. How I wish I can take another 2 days MC and don’t come to work. Haha.

Yesterday went to SIM with ade, she accompanied me to submit my application to enroll into the course – BSc in Logistics and Supply chain management.

Then shortly after it, Cai called me up saying that SIM wanna interview him before confirming his application. LOLx (Pray hard I don’t have to go through the same shit Cai did)

We went back to Tampines Mall in need of looking for something and at the same time to spend my remaining Isetan $30 vouchers. It ended on Fancl items and the sales lady was very nice and gave us quite a number of samples to try. She even told me to sign on Membership and it is free. (For the free/charged part for membership, I am not as clear. But since she mentioned it is free, I just signed lo)

Just ate my lunch and went to surf the internet and came across her blog. She is very nice to be blogging about me and at the same time, print screen my blog link as a picture so that every readers of hers can hopped to my blog to read on how juicy the conflict/argument can be. But the funny part of the story is that everyone reading my blog will not know who I’m referring to since it is anonymous and they won’t be able to hop to her blog to see.

A blog is like a diary where one is able to express his/her thinking and emotion. It is a place of free speech for the blog owner and NO ONE is able to interfere what he/her may write. Others may retaliate but they can only write in their own blog.

I decided to let it come to an end with the exciting blog conversation I have with her. (Be it whether she is continuing or not.)

I have to admit, it is not nice to write such harsh tone at some people but knowing me. I am a person whom flare and let go and I am a superbly straightforward person a.k.a BLURT.

The emotions I had at that moment are thrown in together with each letters I typed. At the end of the entry, I felt much better. (I hope you feel the same too)

If everyone is curious of whom I am referring to, she is actually one of my best friend. (Don’t know if still.)

Seen her yesterday but the feeling was different, I guess it is the crack/gap that people are talking about.

Even if you asked me now, did I regret? My answer is YES and NO.

Yes is when I wrote harsh tone against her.

No is when I totally think I wasn’t doing the wrong thing.

If you think I bothered you too much because I asked to hitch your bike ride a few times (Definitely less than 5 times), then here I am…

I promised to not to sit/hitch a ride on your bike for as long as I can remember.

Thinking about it, you are also hitching the ride from Shane before you have your bike. Aint it?

At that point it wasn’t very convenient too, since all of us stayed Tampines other than you. Correct?

But did Shane complain? I don’t remember so right?

I don’t know what you are feeling now but I know that both she and I are disappointed and upset. Last Friday I felt so pathetic that I even hide in office’s toilet to cry. If you think it is solely my fault, then think it through. It always requires 2 hands to clap, NOT 1.

You may feel that both of us are against you but you think through it. You literally ignore all explanation and even I had apologized, you refused to accept.

Even up till now, I did not mention your name at all. I am not broadcasting to everyone to read and even if people read, who on the whole great world know the person is you? It is ok for you to write down your feelings as much as you want to. But you, being unethical, to print screen and let people know I am the one. I did not write your name is because the blog post is about my feeling and not to broadcast. (Maybe you think you are not wrong since I am the first to start writing. Nvm.)

All your sms-es that you have been insisting to reply was totally wrongly comprehend by you.

“I am not condemning her for goodness sake but you are making me to hate her more each day with such FUCKED up thing that you have done. “

It is you I am referring to, not your girlfriend. You were asking me to say why i think this way right?

Remember that day during countdown; we were drinking and playing cards game. Every one of us treats one another fairly other than you. We play, we lose, and we drink. It is that simple. That is not the issue, but when she puked, all your attention goes to her although the parents are coming up soon. At that moment, have you thought of what happen if her parents see the mess we did? We did not complain, and instead, we shown concern to your girlfriend. But the way you treat her is like she is like a piece of glass where it is so brittle that it will break any moment?

(That is how I feel and what I thought.)

Be it whether you want to open your chalet or not, we will still buy you your present. May you be happy always!

I am sick and tired of this and whether you reply or not, it is up to you but just bear in mind that it takes 2 hands to clap.

P.S: Sorry my friends whom are reading this post, it is very lengthy but it is how I feel.

With loves,

Karine

I am Fucking pissed today. Hate this feeling when I am being P.S. Don’t bothered explaining yourself as I will not listen to you.

I cannot believe such a small request and you are unable to help just because you need to meet your girlfriend.

Maybe in your heart, friends are not important.

Fucking 1 hour only!

Cannot believe that I am so stupid to go and apply leave with the thought that we can go and eat.

I am not asking for things that are too hard to compromise. Just need you to wait for an hour and fetch me so that we all can go and have lunch together. I don’t even need you to send me home. I was even suggesting that ALL go eat together with you all the boyfriend/girlfriend. FUCK it when you like to P.S for the sake of your most important person.

I am not condemning her for goodness sake but you are making me to hate her more each day with such FUCKED up thing that you have done.

But there again, I must thank you for fetching me to work but I did not do nothing too, I helped you with the printings, arranging your document in your portfolio and I entertained you till you about to go in for interview.

Maybe these are just not enough.

Maybe you fucking think that the job I have managed to help to request for your interview is BULLSHIT and it is not even worth your try, then DON’T EVEN BOTHERED ENTERTAINING ME!

From the message you dropped me telling me that She wanna meet you, you have the intention to leave already then WHAT FOR tell me?

If you feel hurt when you are reading this entry or you have cried because I am very blurt with my words.

THEN THINK CAREFULLY ON WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO ME!!! HOW SHITTY AM I FEELING NOW AT THE OFFICE!!!

My Dear Jacinth just told me that I can blog using email. That is like so cool to me la.

But she mentioned that to blog with photograph will be a little bit harder and she is also not very sure how to do that.

Work has been extremely busy and today still have test which I dint spend anytime studying it at all.

I decided to take up Unisim degree course and will enroll tomorrow.

Cai will be enrolling with me so we can be future classmate lei.

P.S: Baby managed to book out last weekend, did not see him for like a total of 16 days, but nevermind, I SAW him on Friday.

Muaahahahah.

Now he is back in camp and I hope to see him again this coming Friday.

Will update my birthday photo this weekend, sorry for the delay.

With love,

Karine