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God damn it that I feel so weird today!

Have been feeling rather upset with the fact that friends of my ex boyfriend are deleting me from their FB account! Never did I expect that knowing them for at least 3 years, having their FB, msn, mobile no and we hanged out before, did not made us “FRIENDS”! Sigh! I felt it is childish for them to be doing something like that and also, it make me understand what does “FRIENDS” means to them. Posted on FB and he came asking me who deleted me and stuff! Sigh! Don’t wanna tell him because I don’t want to stir up any more problems!

Then he came calling me up today! Forcing me to say who deleted my account! And I swear, it is god damn weird for us to talk on the phone! I know he is trying to sound cheery when talking to me, but his tone sounded soooo weird! It is like so fake! And after hanging the phone with him, tears start swelling again!

To me, he is like my bestfriend. He is someone whom knows me very well because we have spent the previous 4 years together. He is someone whom knows why am I troubled every single day and what shit I went through. And to me! I know him inside out! We are like good friends but with a gap.

I do wish him all the best in his future and hope he finds a better girlfriend. And I do wish that he is happy that I am/have found someone that is treating me very well too! I hope we can be friends again, and I sincerely do! It is my wish for now!

Dont ask me why i change my blog link, dont ask me why i post it and i dont announce my link!

i dont wan to hurt him anymore and i want to move on to a whole new chapter without him and i dont want to be led on and lead people on. Anything that i am doing has nothing in relation to you and definitely i hope we still can be friends again! Dont make me feel guilty and MIA from you because for sure i will do that. I dont want to be stuck in the middle and be unfair to anyone at all!

Just let me move on and dont check me out if you ever have the chance again! or i will delete you from facebook too!

I meant it!

thanks. =)

today mood seems exceptionally bad. have this emo-ing feeling eating into me again! sigh!like looking at facebook also can make me wanna tear! what is wrong with me today? hate the feeling!!!! maybe it is the feeling of helpless and useless that i cannot seems to advise and comment to others. i don't wanna ppl to be like me, let people point arrows at. i did not made a wrong decision and i will not look back.

*No comments needed for any info written after*

In fact, i guess i am beginning seeing someone! He is someone of charimas and gentlemanly liked. knew him a few years back as aquaintance and crossed path on his birthday. Quoted from GT :"fate always comes in weird situation". Been there for me, cheering me up. Trying to make me be like how i used to behave.

i think it has been long since i last saw the happy karine myself as well. even though i knew her for 21 years and don't know how many months. i will try to be happy again and be back myself! the old happy go lucky karine!!!!


BOOHOO!!!!!

i just heard another shocking news that er laopo and her girlfriend just ended their relationship. sigh~ sorry barbara, i know you will read my blog.

i hope you guys can think through it carefully then decide on what you all want! at the end of it, i hope you guys will be happy and that is one simple wish i have over here. :)

and in the first place, i dont think i have the right to comment too! sigh! just be happy alrigt??? that is all!!!!

loves,
Karine

I was very touched a few days ago!!!!

As usual laopo and me will be chatting and gossiping on emails to get our day passed by faster! then we happen to decide to meet up for a short period of time since she is only meeting her boyfriend at 9pm and so we decided to go back to tampines 1 to shop and walk around a lil.

Went to Watson and both us us were amazed by this new japanese facial wash and me again, always pulled stunt to cheer her up, took up the position as a Sales promoter to promote the item to her and test the sample on her then psycho her to toilet and wash it off! hahahaha. In the end, both of us bought it, quite expensive at @38 but it is a good deal!!!! :)

then went to walk around, shop a lil and tell her about my problems, my worries, my stress level and my complex family!!!! and then when decided to go off as her boyfriend is in tampines already, we continue by texting and she texted me something that i will remember for life.

"When sister get marry, i will rent you a bed and you can stay over"

:)

Thanks laopo! i truely appreciate such kind act even after knowing all the shit that i told you!!! :)

Just spoken to Barbara on Msn and she confessed that she stalk me on my blog!!! hahaha! she say in office bored till nothing to do and cannot facebook so she decided to pick up the position as a stalker and stalks on people's personal life and update herself as to how people around her are behaving. I guess i do have to give her an A for effort alright?

she told me to blog everyday or every 2 days and i cracked a joke to her. she mentioned that she took 10mins to read my entry and i told her that i will take approximately 10-15 mins to write one which i personally feel that it is actually not a fair trade afterall! hahahah. and she say i was CALCULATIVE!!!!! hahahah! just teasing you la! :p


haven been going out much lately because mommy say it is 7th ghost festive and am not suppose to come back too late. the only late night was on Sat where i headed down to songlim and hong guan's 21st birthday celebration.

i laughed at my birthday message to guan where i told him "stupid, happy birthday to you, i dint know that after knowing you for 6 years, this is the only time i had wished you happy birthday!" hahahah, knew him 6 years ago, 5 years ago we lost contact, and NOW, we are back in contact again!

Went over earlier with dearie ting and elmo and ting's bf, GT, to help out guan's big day. =) he has very big ambition where he wants to turn the hall into a chill out place, a dance floor and a drinking party area with the well decorated lightsticks done by us, his proudly design poster, our neverending liquor drinking session and the powerful music.

In fact, the day became very much like a clubbing area which is quite fun. just that too many cluster of friends and not all are as happening as ME *ahem*, i mean my friends all in the end, only we got high and they got wasted!!! that day i keep hearing people puking and so many funny incidents!!!! hard to type in words! if wanna know, call me next time alright? hahahaha. I am lazy, SO!!!! i am going to randomly upload some photos only! not in sequence so just view as it is! if wanna see more, i have it in my Facebook!

enjoy and loves!!!!
























Taken this quiz from Facebook and i was puzzled by this:


Compatibility Love Match base on Zodiac
Karine has try compability love match based on Zodiac sign

Dear Karine Kwan, below is your result :

Love Match: Aquarius Woman Dating Gemini Man

An Aquarius woman dating a Gemini man will have a twinkle in her eye ...and an

absorbed look on her face. He'll keep her mentally captivated for hours on

end and then at the drop of a hat fly away to do something on his own which suits

the Aquarius woman just fine. After all, no one understands the need to be free

like she does.

The Gemini man is stimulating and will provide the Aquarius woman with a buffet of

variety and clever, humorous fun. The Gemini man adores her for the innovative

way she socializes and yet at the same time maintains her individuality.

Sexually, this dating pair will telepathically know what the other desires. And

that's a good thing since what feels good one night in bed could bore either

one of them the next!


hmmmm.... what else should i be saying? hahahaha

cheers,
Karine

Something that i read from Fiona's Facebook quote :

"So here’s a piece of advice; let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough, and move on when things are not like before. For sure there is someone out there who will love you even more.”

i totally agree with this.

I am upset!
I seriously don’t know why someone can do something like that especially when you are in your mid 20s and you are supposed to know how to think for yourself! Why are you doing something like that to your career and do you know how serious this is going to cause an impact to your future?

Is money really so tempting to that extend that you are willing to risk your future just like that? And is it worth for you to bluff your friend’s concern when they are worried for your case? WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING?

Quoted from JQ “there are all sorts of people in the world”

I must learn this!!!! :(

JIA YOU KARINE!!!!! =)

i think communication is very important and i hope to foster that. Shouldn't you not keep everything to yourself and be grumpy? all you need to do is to open up and i will lend you my listening ear.

I may be grumpy at times too, but i promise i will lend you my ears....


Cheer up alright?

Nowadays whenever I have nothing much to do and especially when I am at home, my mind tends to wonder off and start thinking emo-ly, the feeling of loneliness starts eating into me. I don’t wish to feel so but I cannot seem to control it from coming.

The fact that the situation could be less ugly turns into an ugly scene with all the arrows pointing towards me. And always, a relationship only consists of 2 parties and not more. But this time round, too many people probe into this matter and everything turn from simplicity to complexity. I don’t want things to turn into like that but who am I to control? In the first place, I cannot stop anyone from saying things behind my back. It is at a point in time that things cannot be turned back because the situation is too ugly to even amend it.

I am guilty, to you, to your family which is undeniable. The guilt may in fact follow me for a couple of years till it slowly fade off. But I am sure that I am enjoying my current life, trying to live my life to the fullest, trying to do things that I have always wanted to do. Now it is time for the next chapter of my life, to move on from here.

So I plead all, please stop haunting me about my past and leave me alone. I don’t wish that this guilt will turn into sorrow and tears. Just let me move on to my next chapter of life.

Ending chapter,
Karine

Wondering how petty one woman can behave and it is really getting on my nerve with the behavior of my sister-in-law.... at the rate she she annoying my family, i strongly believe that she is not a good sister-in-law at all.... or should i just condemn her that she is not a good wife at home!!!

I have to admit that i have a not so capable brother but since you guys are married, you are suppose to take care of her and not suppose to show black face and condemn my whole family... what you did yoday is farking annoying and i will bear with it, the fact that you are my sister-in-law, i will give you the last bit of respect....

Darn, how i hope i can go out of my house and relax. sigh!!!!

=(

Loves,
Karine

I just learn about this place where you can get some free sampling on items that you have always wanted to buy but yet, it is expensive and you don't know if the effect is worth the investment of the money! So this website, allow you to try out samples from those stuff that you always wanted then you can consider whether you should buy it or not!!!!

Very creative website created..... =)



You wont wanna miss something like that!!!

With loves,
Karine

Realising that nowadays i have been rather short term when it comes to remembering things! Arghx! and it getting on my nerves sometimes! Last Saturday was helping laopo to prepare and to pre-celebrate her 21st birthday. =) I hope she enjoyed herself that day and definitely today where it is her actual day. =)

Thank you laopo for giving me endless support in whatever i have done, am doing or going to do although i know many times you did not wanna support me. Dont worry, i love you deep deep and i believe we can be best friend forever ayte? speaking about it, i wll try my best to see what me and eileen can plan up for your birthday ayte? (KEA loves one another!)

Nowadays mood is pretty stablized aside from the fact that people around me are asking about him, maybe they realise that suddenly i was all alone again, without him by my side! hahahaha. but honestly, i think i made the correct decision. As much as i know i will feel guilty for the longest period of time, i feel that i shouldn't drag on that relationship. Maybe it is one that my feeling has faded or i have lost beliefs in!

I just hope everyone can stop showing me concern in that area and let me do whatever i want because i know for sure, Whatever i am going to do or chose will definitely make myself happy. =)

Loves,
Karine

Dear Karine,

I ____ you.
You have a nice ______.
You make me _______.
You should _______.
Someday I will ______.
You + me = ________.
If I saw you now I'd __________.
I want to ________ you.
I would build a _______ just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be _________.
We could __________ under the stars.

Love,
_______________

(P.S. ______________.)

Oh and I am __________ (going/not going) to post this under my notes and see what you write about me.

Ryan Wei Wen Lensays

Dear Karine,

I like you.
You have a nice personality and character.
You make me feel not so lonely.... Read More
You should meet up more often.
Someday I will know if.
You + me = BFF.
If I saw you now I'd give you a hug.
I want to tell you.
I would build a wall just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be boom boom pow also (LOL).
We could sing and dance and bbq under the stars.

Love,
Ryan

(P.S. alright, we'll meet up soon.)

Oh and I am going (going/not going) to post this under my notes and see what you write about me.

Bryan Jiun Hong Lim says

Dear Karine,

I like you.
You have a nice heart.
You make me happy with your sms-es.... Read More
You should smile more.
Someday I will see you again.
You + me = good friends.
If I saw you now I'd give you a bouquet of flowers and ice cream.
I want to entertain you.
I would build a empire just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be missing you by Tyler Hilton ( lol, it was the first song when i open the itunes, so really random).
We could just sit under the stars.

Love,
Jiun Hong

(P.S. I've no idea if this is good enough_.)

Oh and I am going (going/not going) to post this under my notes and see what you write about me.

Benjamin Sim says

Dear Karine,

I appreciate you.
You have a nice heart.
You make me happy everyday.... Read More
You should love urself always.
Someday I will meet u.
You + me = Unseen Friends.
If I saw you now I'd smile.
I want to hold you.
I would build a house just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be wat ever u wan to hear.
We could have fun under the stars.

Love,
Benjamin

(P.S. Smile and treasure urself more.)

Oh and I am going to post this under my notes and see what you write about me.

Chew Qing Cai says

Dear Darling
I like you.
You have a nice caring personality and bring joy to people around u
You make me feel happy whenever with you and u cheer me up when i am down.
You should stay this way and quit emoing.... Read More
SOmeday i will give u a big surprise.
If i see you now i would hug you
I wan to be with you.
I would build a lily palace just for u.
I woiuld sing any song for you it will be fen shou kuai le
We could pinic under the stairs

Love
laocai

oh.. i am not going to post this on my post


I am so having sweet person around my life that bring joys to me. =)

loves,
karine

I have been on an emotional rollercoaster for the past week, every day I will have to make sure I tire myself badly before I am able to head to bed without my mind thinking. I have been out of house almost everyday meeting up with different cliques and chilling out with them.

Been rather upset this very moment, I have made one lady, whom instills a lot of knowledge, thinking, provide me a lot of exposure, love, care and concern really upset. She loves me but I’ve hurt her loved one. I’m sorry and please forgive me. Thank you and your family for making me a different person in my life. I don’t know if our path will meet again but I sincerely wish you and your family great future.

Cheers,
Karine

OMG! i am so in love with kate spade bags nowadays with the stupid influence of laopo la!!!! I am so gonna save money to buy this! i hope by next month!!! sob!





Color : (1) Chocolate (2) Paprika (3) Stucco.




ks dot noel woven on durable jacquard fabric with natural waxed vachetta cowhide trim
handheld & over the shoulder strap, zipper closure
interior zip pocket and double slide pockets
solid silk faille lining
ksny blind embossed signature on trim leather license plate
4.7" drop length
9"h x 14"w x 6.4"d
RP: US$345, Now : US$172 (50% off - S$318 incl EMS + local courier)

http://paylessdesignerbags.blogspot.com/search/label/kate%20Spade


Any kind soul wanna buy for me ma? =) i needa sugar daddy!

I guess i still owes my pretty little blog some photos updte of my recent doings.

Have been rather busy with meeting up with friends, colleagues living my life to the fullest. Although i have forgo something precious to me but at the same time, it open up another new phrase in my life. I will not look back and regret and will move on happily to make sure that my daily request for myself to be happy is met. =)

Just some random updates of the events i had these past few months/weeks.

1. Went out with my Dearest BFF and small chick. =) They made my day very happy and i enjoy spending my time with them. Alot of catching up and we still knows we love one another deep deep. hahahahaha










2. Another date with Weiwen , BFF because small chick "PS" us. This time round, BFF brought me to "The ship", a very nice ambience restaurant that is very cosy and served great food! =)



3. Went out with colleagues to go for Jia hao's farewell. We head down to MOF and then i force them to go and take neo-print!!!! =p

Look at how Hao gege behaves! totally out of the picture! hmmmm!





4. My darling Yi ting mei mei ast day at work! And we head down to suntec for our dinner! i miss her badly and am suppose to meet her today one but i cannot wake up!!! so sorry. =)



4. Went for catching up session with NTUC ex colleagues, haven seen them in ages le and su hwee became more ba ba (Pray hard she doesn't see this blog entry) but overall i still misses them very much!



5. Company's chalet and get-together bonding session. Which i personally feels that this bonding session works! =) i am now closer to the HR staff and i like~





6. Meet up with the GMP clique and all of us were how amazed at Shawn's slimming session of cutting down 18kg of his fats! overall, kaiyi still the same old self! hhahahaha



7. BFF's 21st birthday celebration, BFF is finally a grown up man liao hor! now must know how to take good care of ME! =)




With loves,
Karine

Heyy people!!!

Haven been blogging for nearly 2 months, sometimes it keeps me thinking whether i should close my blog and just stopped blogging but thinking twice. I always feel that at least, there is one place where i can post about my feelings and express it out without worrying much.

Moving on to another phrase of my life where i crave for freedom, for more moments where i can capture not to regret in my life and recently i have made a decision where i did not expect myself to do. I promised myself that i will not look back and will look for a greater day every time i wake up. =)

Working so far have picked up, other than my boss enjoy dumping things to me to do and totally ignore my colleague which is so not cool! I am handling the whole operations for my company which is crazy. Just, sometimes, i hope i can find someone to lend me listening ear to listen to me grumble about my working stuff and let me pour out my sorrow and then!!!! i will be a happy girl again!!! Heehee...

I am very lazy to post photos! if those readers whom add me on facebook will know i am far more happening there! maybe i will consider posting my blog entry in facebook ayte? Whatever happens, Karine will always be Karine. I promise!!!!

With loves and hugs,
and who knows when i will blog again!!!!
Karine.